Just tired

[3momstrong]

I’m a single working mother of three little. Have been since I was 18 I’m now 30. I’m just tired. My anxiety, panic and depression are so high. We had covid I’m July and just can’t seem to be well so I keep thinking all day everyday I’m just going to die and leave my girls with no momma. I can’t seem to shake this fear. I just want to feel ok I have to get up and go to work I’m 2 hours and I’m exhausted 😭

[Pinkeye901]

Call off work and go to the ER. Sounds like you're having a panic attk. Talk with the doctors on how you're feeling so they can treat you with meds. Try to feel the sensations and tell yourself you got this. Let the feeling pass don't fight it just observe it. I pray for you. Stay strong for your girls they need you. Call of work ok.

[3momstrong in reply to Pinkeye901]

I so wish I could call off but I’ve called off so much if I do again I fear I will loose my job I just started and have already called off several times 😭

[Pinkeye901 in reply to 3momstrong]

Ok have you tried applying for benefits? Food stamps or ssi? Give it a try. And how long have you been working? I say this because you can also apply for sdi. Did you also try out for housing? I think they might be able to help you out if you're income is little to none. The root issue here is your panic attacks. Find ways to manage your anxiety. Avoid caffeine, social media, negative people, and things that might add or set off your anxiety. There's too much weight on your shoulders. You need to find someone who will listen and help you out. Also I believe that a man not present in your life is the result of this as well. Don't be a fool in trying to think you can do it by yourself ok. You need help. Call family members for a place to stay at while you work on your anxiety. DO NOT BE ASHAMED! You aren't weak ok trust me on this. If you can find a decent man or family member to stay at to help you out I'm willing to bet the stress and anxiety will go down too. Jeep composure as best as you can and don't fight the anxiety. Feel it, all of the sensations and let it pass. What you can do is acknowledge the fear, but tell yourself even though you fear you're going to go on ahead and do what you have to do. This helps you. Im someone who suffers from crippling anxiety for all my life. I'm 30 btw. Anxiety causes fear, but you can't let it keep you house bound. Slowly and steadily do what you have to despite the fear. I know it's hard but if I can do it I believe you can also. I'm butt ugly 1 friend, and a family by my side only. This is not to shame you, but to give you strength instead so like I said maintain composure as best as you can, find ways to manage the anxiety, find someone to help you with the load, ask for help, apply for benefits and aid, and know that we are here for you ok. Stay safe and let us know on the update ok. Best wishes.

[3momstrong in reply to Pinkeye901]

Thank you so much this meant a great deal to me ❤️

[Pinkeye901 in reply to 3momstrong]

No worries you owe me nothing just give yourself a chance and fight this with everything you got. It doesn't have to end with suicide ok . Another thing also. If it helps you I'm also rejected by society, haven't had sex in 5 years, the only time I had sex was with a prstitue and this was at 25. I mean how does one not go insane 😅. But really your stronger then you think but your going to need to have the courage to get up and fight this at a pace that suits you. Good luck and may God hold you close and hold your hand when you are at the end of your ropes. God bless you and your three little girls.

[3momstrong in reply to Pinkeye901]

Thank you again for your kind words !!

[Pinkeye901 in reply to 3momstrong]

Your welcome hit us with anything that bothering you ok. Take care!

[3momstrong in reply to Pinkeye901]

I sure will

[Jakki-82]

Sorry to hear things are so difficult right now for you.

Maybe look for some medical help?

It sounds like you are really struggling at the moment.

[Anij3443]

The fear that grips us is very, very real to us. It sounds like its time for a two par approach. Intensive therapy/counseling and possibly meds to help you get through this season. I am so sorry that fear is strangling your heart. Please know that you are not alone and that there is help. I am praying for you. How are you doing now?