I’m 39 years old. I’m happily married with 2 beautiful children. My son is 12, has sensory integration disorder, ADHD and autism, but high functioning. My daughter is 5, has sensory integration disorder, is delayed because of difficulties processing language and retaining information. She’s too young to take for the extensive testing my son has undergone. I work full time, as does my husband. I’ve struggled with depression since I was 16. Though it’s improved, it never really goes away. I have to keep at it. But it’s just so overwhelming these passed couple of months. My daughter is screaming and getting physical instead of trying to use her words. We suspect that a lot of it is due to our son claiming more of our attention bc of his issues. I take him to therapy every Saturday, we do therapy homework every night. It’s a constant battle with him on every front. But I sit with her every night doing homework and now I have therapy homework with her, too. I feel like I’m going to collapse or explode. I’m exhausted. I feel like I’m not doing enough for them and like I’m doing so much but nothing works. Sometimes I just wanna escape and read a book, and I feel guilty for that. Sorry, I just had to vent.