Mom just called said the bathroom at Grandma's broke and she's not going anywhere untill it has a good bathroom. Weird, it's not cancel led because of sis being sick but because of the bathroom. Anyway it's cancelled. Wich is maybe good. But this means i don't have a fixed date of leaving here. This means it's up to me to deside when to leave and whether to leave. I'm so used to being controlled that now i don't trust myself to make a desision to leave or stay and when to leave. I think i have to listen to my intuition. I thought i was going to go to Grandma's and i was sending my money and also being at bad terms with my roommates and also feeling alone and also worried about sis. In terms of seeing if sis is okay, having her company, having food, not dealing with roommates is good to go but i'm unwell mentally and sis is unwell physically. I have to think of a new date and methood of transportation.
Maybe i overreacted. I was lonely. And i wanted my parents to give me genuine attention not to use me as a methood to hurt each other. Also grieving someone i lost because of those inherited manipulations
I Don't know what is wrong with me
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do 
Don’t know what to do.
