Hurt

[Bubu2]

My life has not been easy at all,my upbringing has been so traumatic.I live with my parents and little sister, my old brother committed suicide in 2019 which we all witnessed 😭💔seeing my brother hanging there really left a huge scar in me,while it was me and my brother, we both grew up in a very abusive environment where my mother was being abused infront of us,so a anger grew within us towards our father and we didn't get that father's love💔so even after my brother's death still can't seem to get along with my Dad even though his around us.The only person he has loved is my little sister, so fast forward 2021 had a miscarriage, like i had to terminate the pregnancy because of the Conditions the Baby had💔so am still suffering from that trauma again because what I went through wasn't easy.i Passed my Matric well but it' Is even to get a job.like my life is a mess sometimes i feel like a failure like am nothing, sometimes I feel like dying is the solution to set free myself from this misery. I have difficulties of breathing,suffering from headaches,I have low self-esteem. am in a relationship but everytime i started unnecessary fights, always hurt that person through things i say to him,bottle Things up to myself, just cry and cry ,fight everyone around me.One mintue am happy Next am totally sad,down,angry and mad.I really Can't go on like this, will end up losing myself and everyone that cares about me.

[Lookingforhope20100]

My upbringing wasn't the best you had it way worse then me with physical abuse mine was mental abuse and sexual abuse I know what it's like to have those fits of anger and blowing up for no reason I wish I had an answer for you but I don't just know you aren't alone maybe it will help to know there is someone out there battling the same fight you are.

[Southernmama2022]

Sweet friend, your strength amazes me in all that you shared. Your life has not been easy and I cannot begin to imagine all you have endured. I wish you could see your strength because the fact you have come this far shows how strong you are. With everything you’ve endured have you ever talked to a counselor? I went through some extreme moments in my own life and one of the things that helped me off the edge was talking to a counselor. It helped me to say things out loud that I had been holding in and just have someone help me process. Here is a number you can talk to someone and then they can help you find someone in your area, 855-382-5433. Also, here are some links you might consider looking at: focusonthefamily.com/pro-li...

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