Hi.. Groub.. Just need some support

I have discoverded more than two weeks ago some kind of bugs that when i took a pic of it and send it to a specialist exterminator he told me that its live in eating woods and fabrics and its harful for human health..I felt nausea With my anxiety and old experince with bed bugs and another pigeon mites that came from a neighbor who rises them.. Thankfully I overcome them but it took its tool in me me physically and mentally.. With my obsessive of cleaning... And it escalate after corona pandamic I know so many people who had the tendency have suffered..

I brought the expert and got rid of it and cleaned and cleaned..I didnot sleep well I slept less didnot have aptite to eat.. I breathed a sigh of relief when I checked all the apartment.. Today I saw one.. I felt my spirit drops.. I dont want to lose my strenght.. Without God I would collapse.. I know some might find me exaggerate.. But my anxiety rises and try my best to stay calm and find solutions and read about how to get rid of it the more I read the more I have Hope and get depressed at the same time.. I am tired and lonely I wrote Here I know you guys would understand how anxiety is not an easy fellow to live with..

Sorry for the long messege

Hope all are safe..

[Hidden]

Hi. I'm sorry this is anxiety-inducing for you. We're listening. I hope writing about it has helped. Writing definitely helps me sort out the jumbled mess that goes on up there.

[misslillie in reply to Hidden]

I understand your anxiety. Some of your concern is valid. That concern motivated you to take necessary action. However the remaining anxiety that bleeds your energy and robs you of your peace of mind is the problem. Pat your self in the back. You did what needed to be done and you are here at this site problem solving. Call the exterminator back. Also eat right sleep right stay in touch with your support system. Do the things you have learned to do to manage your anxiety.

I live in an old house next to an interstate. So many allergens and toxins in this environment. It takes its toll. I do what I know to do to reduce the toxins. I go clean environments as often as possible. For sure I am not an anti-masker! We will continue to be resourceful and support each other here at this website. I will look for your post in the future.