Hi all
The last few days have been some of the worst of my life. I've struggled with anxiety, depression, panic attacks, depersonalization and derealization for some time now but this has been exceptionally bad. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep, I have not been able to stop thinking about it. I feel like I am in a dream like state. I'm questioning all of reality around me.
I'm forgetting what I did a few minutes ago and all of "the past" is just hazy in my mind. I can't stop ruminating on existential thoughts - who am I, why are we here, what is life. I feel like I'm losing my mind, like I'm forgetting more and more about what it's like to live. Almost like I'm digressing with my mental capacity, going back to a child like state.
Nothing feels real to me and its throwing me into repeated panic attacks.
I'm so scared of this and I don't know how to break it. I don't know where to turn or what to do. I'm absolutely horrified of dying but I don't know that I can live like this much longer
Please help.