Hell week

[Bentleybexley39]

The week that has caused massive anxiety and stress has finally came and ended. 4 huge projects due at the same time and in different states. This week has kicked my ass, I’m exhausted. I don’t understand how it’s easy for some people to hit a massive deadline and accomplish the work, but are fully functioning the next day. Like I need a day off in between….but don’t have that luxury at this new job.

At one social I found out one of the top bosses just had his EA quit. I really like the boss and before I took this role I was looking at EA jobs. I talked to him about it and he said to give him my resume. Then he asked if it would piss off even higher management if I left this role 6 months in to work under him. I said I didn’t care and I need to do what’s best for me.

So yesterday, I talk to his EA that’s leaving and she tells me that the reason she is leaving is because during Covid the huge huge company got rid of almost every EA in the country. Only a few were allowed to stay on and those that got to stay were given more management to work with. She is leaving to ensure she still has a job and not in fear of losing it. After she told me that I remembered hearing the other bosses this week talk about layoffs and that made me nervous. I know in my current role I’m okay. I gotta really mess up to be let go. But the clients I deal with literally have me screaming into my pillow and I’m full of rage with anything to do with them. And they never go away. I never get a break from them.

The EA job will take me away from all that…. And would be more money…. But what about the job security? Still haven’t sent him my resume…. I think I need to, but I gotta make sure I’m not the first on the chopping block. And if I were to get cut I will have burnt all my bridges by leaving big management so quickly that there is little hope I would get hired with that company again.

Idk…. Just tired of it all.