My stepmother has my family name

[Against_the_current]

I needed money (for therapy) and dad said he will send. I'm looking at the sending paper and it's not dad's name. It's her name with his adress and his last name. He didn't even tell me he got married. I feel so bad. I feel so bad i missed today's therapy for a therapist that isn't helping me since 2 years with this. Just i saw the name and every organ of mine stopped. How could i miss therapy 😭

I'm trying to get better but it doesn't help. I'm trying, taking walks, meditations, buying scended candles, feeling bad for buying them but it won't help it. Getting friends to forget it. Then get sad over them. Then remember i have worse problems. My therapist possesive over me and who i share with, she even doesn't like it that i share her. I just want to cursed her. I missed a therapy that could help me by giving her another chance and also 2 years just got worse.

Edit : I have nobody. Everyone is either mad at me or not talking. My roommate is cleaning like crazy, she's probably gonna kill me in this state. I just need some reassurance and everyone hates my guts. I hate my guts too. Pathetic existence

Edit 2 : I mean my closest ppl hate my guts, not you, you're great guys

[TrustYourSoul]

Nobody here "hates your guts". It sure would be great to know the good things that happen in your day or your week. If you focused on the positive, what are those good things?

Focusing on the positive, accepting things you cannot change, and being at Peace releasing those things, is something you have to Practice in order to get better. Nobody can play the piano nicely without lots of Practice. Life is no different.

Just Practice thinking of the positive things that happen, letting go of as many negative things as you can, and you'll see how much better your life will be. It works! Practice.....You're Smart. You can do this! 🙋‍♀️

[Against_the_current in reply to TrustYourSoul]

Thanks