I have made myself sick in the past
Because of ptsd
And from my wrong doings
Because of him mainly
I can be free from the pain
But I won’t cause others pain like he did
We share the pain
Tell me when it’s time to be with you in heaven
I have made myself sick in the past
Because of ptsd
And from my wrong doings
Because of him mainly
I can be free from the pain
But I won’t cause others pain like he did
We share the pain
Tell me when it’s time to be with you in heaven
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Hi not sure what you mean by this post can you explain ….. tell me when it’s time for you to be in heaven ?
What’s going on Starrlight. It almost sound like a poem. Who is he?
My brother killed himself and it really fucked me up I was already messed up to some degree. I would sabotage myself by making very poor choices and i still struggle with that and I just quit drinking this time I think for good I feelLike I don’t belong in this world.
I am so sorry my condolences my friend ! You have a heart of gold and are stronger than you think . Praying for strength and healing and hugs your way !🙏❤️
I've also lost my brother to a death that was ruled a suicide. It is not something I speak much about or share with many people and def is not something I ever want to have in common with anyone, but I can absolutely relate to everything you just said. I'm sorry for your loss and admire your courage & strength! 💜((hugs))
I hear you dear Starr. It hurts to read of your pain. You're right, you won't hurt your family that way. Remember, you are a brave, strong woman. Pain tries to to take it away. #$@!% him.
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Ah, my Belovéd, fill the Cup that clears
Today of past Regrets and future Fears:
Tomorrow!--Why, Tomorrow I may be
Myself with Yesterday's Sev'n thousand Years.
You are very beautiful my friend. Thank you!!! ❤️ I love the poem
You're welcome. I'm glad you enjoyed it. Every moment away from hurt is a better moment.
True. Wise words that I hope to remember. I am so sensitive sometimes then I start hating myself then it turns to worse things if I don’t take care of it while it’s small snd fresh... something as simple as my son talking to me disrespectfully like he is my boss I’ll just say ok that’s him and let it go.
Your words go right to the heart of it for me.
I have trouble with confrontation myself.
Life has hurt me deeply and often. What I've done with that, is learned to do everything possible to avoid hurting others.
Sounds good, right?
Not so much. I act like a doormat. I don't know how to stand up for myself until things have gone too far.
Then I hate myself for taking all the crap, and I'm furious at the "perp".
Ka-pow, I lose it, and hate myself more.
The best part of our special forum, for me, is talking with someone who knows.
Gee I wish you didn't know about this stuff. It's no fun, and a hard routine to break.
Sweetie, I hear you , but that was his choice, you are a wonderful lady, and have lots to live for, congrats on the drinking, that’s my downfall xxx
Aw. I know you are speaking of your brother. I struggle the same way. I have always been messed up but my kids helped ground me. Since my son died by suicide I have given up trying to get better. I’ve tried all the medication and every other thing that’s come my way. BUT I can’t do that to my family as I know the pain that survivors go through. You basically pass your pain on to them. So I suffer in silence and wait until my time is up. You have your children and they need their mama. 💕