How do I endure the pain?

[FightingForMyself]

Do you ever just feel that you want your life to end? But then you always look back to your family and friends. That selfless feeling you have inside of you is stoping you from killing yourself so that you won't see your family and friends getting sad or depressed because of your death.... so all you do endure all the pain, put a fake smile on your face and pretend that everything's ok... when it's not.

You could feel yourself becoming more weak. But how can you stop this pain? Voices in my head tell me to kill myself... but how about the people around me? Do they LOVE me? Did they EVEN love me? Right now I have some fake friends and I swear, I want to be away from them. But, who will I run to now when they're my only 'friends'? They give me the feeling of being left out in our so called friend group. Tired of everything. Makes me feel like an outcast...

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Go down to the store and buy yourself some cards full of affirmations and sayings and hugs and sayings for self Buy some flowers for someone but for yurself

We have to be our own advocates like it or not as we are what we have Sometimes people are given life full nothing but abuse and pain and hardship

Whatever is going on u have to stand by u and be yur own best friend and supporter even if no one else understands

I have an inspiration board of my genuine hero’s no one else would get. U know to this day as cornet as it sounds it works Scrap books of pictures that uplift me

My book

My book

Not the one I’m supposed to say

I share it with no one

Buy yurse flowers. Spray your room with. BeUtiful

Fragrances. Make yur room. Yu our sanctuary

Ur world. Yur creation

Inspiring and my favorite Music

It’s not selfish

Someday. I’ll be there for someone else. I promise

Volunteer someplace Give yourself permission to take care of yurself enjoy life nature a park

I have a huge happy Elmo picture silly but it works as does snoopy and Woodstock give me hope

Take care. Just thoughts

[JkBrauer]

You are special and have a great purpose for your life. You have to be willing to look and search for what it is. You seem to sensitive and compassionate. Thinking about others first. These are wonderful qualities that you have! Have you thought about helping others out with their struggles? By helping others is sometimes the best way to help solve our own problems. Find things that you are thankful for in your life - make a list of them and see what you come up with. Make a list of things that bring peace into your life. Make a list of all the family and people in your life who love you. Think about the circumstances that are making you think about the emptiness in your life. I only know of one person who can take that void away in your life. His name is Jesus Christ. He loves you and me and everyone in this world and does not want to see you suffer and hurt like this. If you have exhausted every other avenue and still feel empty inside. You truly want to find peace, love, and fulfillment in your life, then come before the LORD and praise and thank Him for being our God, ask Him to forgive you of all your sins, and by faith that you want to become His child a child of God. He will give you a sense of peace, love, and fulfillment during these difficult times that you are dealing with.

If you think you need more help, I want to give you the phone number the suicide hotline; 18002738255 and if you need extra help for great free counseling I have used it before FOFHelpLine - 18002326459. I hope that you can find something here that can help you. Know that I am praying for you.

[Poodie]

Hi Fighting,

Do read above and do not abandon the desire to get help. I too was depressed from an early age. It took me a very long time to find the right people to help me.

Try some form of therapy if possible. But do not be surprised if yo do not find someone you can relate to right away. Be patient and be willing to give it time.

There must be other resources, too besides the one above.

Always fight for yourself. Be sure the person you are working with has training, is licensed in their profession and has been trained in working with clients. and your age group.

Try to find some who has had a great deal , years of experience. Also, you want a nice warm kind understanding genuine person who can respect who you are.

I wish I had had someone to talk to when I was your age, but I did not. I regret not finding myself and gaining confidence in who I was much earlier in life. Try to find an adult who can help you line things up if you can not go to your parents.

Now please do me a favor and look up the age limit allowed on this site. I appreciate your honesty but I think it may be 16. This is not a rejection in any way. There must be another forum you can seek out. Make sure it is a legitimate site. Write to the admin here and ask for guidance.

You can try free or sliding scale clinics if you have to. Just pursue this help and do not give up. Do not let suicide be an option. Look , just do no let yourself do that. I am being honest here when I tell you, it sounds to me like you would be wasting the life of a wonderful and unique person.

They are sufficient good caring people in this world for you to find one. There are also in between and not nice so we have all to choose wisely.

Believe me, you could have so much love and happiness ahead of you. So be brave, be wise, but do not give up.

Now try to contact an admin to find out the age limit and to get more concrete help. Or search on line yourself. You found us so you can research more.

I will be thinking of you. Let me know about the age limit.

Good luck. Lots of love. And always take care of yourself.

You can do this!

[pink318]

Hello,

I’m so sorry to hear that you are going through such a rough time. Do you have someone you can talk to, like someone you can trust? It’s also helpful if you will surround yourself with people who will encourage you at this time. Please don’t think of suicide. Please know that we are here for you.

Continue to post. I hope you will find comfort here. I pray for God’s peace and strength to be upon you and you will remain hopeful. Take care.