Depression

I am lonesome but can't stand to be around people. Being around my family; makes it worse. They don't understand I just want to be left alone. When I am around them, they make me so mad. I blow up then shutdown. When I try to explain how I'm feeling and what I'm going thru they say I act like I'm the only one in the world going thru depression. That's what makes me so mad because instead of listening and trying to support. They try to tell me it's all in my head and that I can control my depression; to just be happy. Anyone that has depression knows that's not how it works😣

[Hidden]

I can completely understand and relate to what you wrote. You’re not alone in the feelings you’re having.🙂

[sad4years]

I know how you feel. When any of my family is around the only thought I have is how soon will they leave or would anyone miss me if I go to bed. The holidays are the worst because holidays were very difficult for me as a child & they expect me to fix a dinner like my mother used to. When things get too much, I will go outside & smoke. I remind myself that I can get through the next 5 minutes & I keep repeating that phrase until everyone finally leaves.

[SRNM]

I understand your situation. I went through this a few years back when my anxiety shot through the roof. My family didn't understand or acknowledge first. But slowly they came around. I saw a psychiatrist, who put me on medication to calm my nerves down. I also started running and reading a lot about running. So medication + activity + family support had helped me a lot.

[Hidden in reply to SRNM]

Thank you. It helps knowing that other people do understand

[LoNarwhal]

I understand being lonesome but at the same time finding it hard to be around people. I feel upset that I am alone sometimes but then when people are around, I feel like I want them to go away. My husband is a great guy but he doesn’t understand it at all or why I can’t just ‘get over it’ and enjoy what’s going on around me. (He’s very outgoing and I don’t think he’s been anxious a day in his life.)

[paperpencil]

That's a hard place to be in. Almost like there are two modes with no middle ground and both are painful. I wish I had some advice for you but I struggle with this myself and very heavily. After years of suffering I began to just keep the feelings mostly to myself and in doing so these negative feelings became somewhat of an occupation. Now I can't even reach out to friends because I'm afraid the only thing I bring to the table is pain. It's turtles all the way down.

[Sueislove]

You are completely right that is not how it works unfortunately I wish it was that easy to feel normal again . We just gotta remember the only ones that truely can understand is once’s that have had or are going through it ! Know your not alone !❤️‍🩹 And sometimes if people or family bring you down I find it’s best to stay away till I feel better not ignore but do what feels best for me at the moment and they will understand or not or try or not but our own self love and care is what should be first ❤️🙏💜