Two days of studying and searching collecting and thinking also fretting

[Starrlight]

I have my rising 5 th grader in a virtual k-12 program. My rising high schoolers wants to do homeschooling on his own with me probably ending up helping. It’s gotten me so stressed just not knowing how things will work out. This year there were virtual teachers and a base school to go to for help if needed Next year there will only be a virtual and us finding a homeschooling curriculum. I am not well. I overworked trying to figure everything out even though I have like four months. I just like to plan and know everything as soon as possible so I can be at peace. I’m far from peace which I thought I would be at after organizing some things and finding so much info but I’m still stressed to the max. I’m working on letting go of control. Maybe by later tonight I will chill out. Thanks for listening. I’m really down on myself also because of getting stressed. I think I must be driving my family crazy. I’m trying to trust. I need to learn to give myself more breaks too. It’s just too much all I’m doing. I have folders of papers and it’s hard to see straight. Ugh breathe

[c-mac]

I'm so impressed you are taking all this on. I hope all of your competence includes taking good care of yourself, too. Especially because it seems like the stakes are high.

[Starrlight in reply to c-mac]

Yeah I’m afraid I’ll mess my kids school up. I’ll try my best. I will do my best at taking care of myself thanks!!!

[Starrlight in reply to Starrlight]

What do you mean stakes are high? The importance of their education you mean ? Or the state of my mind? My mental health is suffering.

[c-mac in reply to Starrlight]

I'm so anxious all the time if I'm doing the right things for my child's education, so it seems like it would be a lot to take on.

[Nothing_but_books]

Instead of trying to relinquish control over the whole thing, how about addressing it on paper? Make a bulleted list of the problems you're stressing about, then see if there's a solution (or not) to each one. At least it won't be all crazy-making chaos bouncing around your mind. Sometimes that helps me.

Oh, and find a cute doggy video to watch. That always helps me.

[Starrlight in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I actually did that but then I found more to deal with just now and I just cant think straight anymore... I’ll try again tomorrow.

[Starrlight]

My youngest said to me I am strong I just need to use it.

[melbrown in reply to Starrlight]

Smart kiddo... like his mama.💗

[Starrlight in reply to melbrown]

Aww thanks, beautiful

[Agamemnon2022]

It's hard not to worry about the unknown. Maybe, since you have time, you could break the large task into smaller components. What is step one of the process? Step two? Assign a block of time to study what you need to do each step of the way. Like an hour a nite. By the time it starts You'll be the super ready confident and prepared. If you make a mistake after that, well you're human. All of us are imperfect beings in an increasingly chaotic world.

[Starrlight in reply to Agamemnon2022]

Agamemnon2022, thank you! I ll try it!

[melbrown]

💗🫂 Hope you are able to relax some Starrlight. I think many of us would feel the same... I know I'd be wanting everything organized and beyond stress. Remember you are an amazing mom and are doing your best.

[Starrlight in reply to melbrown]

Thank you so much! I so appreciate you!!! How are you?

[melbrown]

😊💗 Unfortunately I haven't been sleeping well... whoots stress, anxiety, etc. Enjoying time with the pup. Hope things are abit clearer today.

[Dolphin14 in reply to melbrown]

Hi Mel

Sorry you haven't been sleeping well. How is your fur baby doing?

❤️🐬

[melbrown in reply to Dolphin14]

Dolphin14 you are so sweet.💗 He's doing okay... coughing some, but still eating, has energy & more importantly a happy, spoiled pup.

[Dolphin14 in reply to melbrown]