Someone to Talk to

[Bookishbunny]

So I have to miss therapy because of my stupid job. If I don't see them I don't have anyone else to talk to, at least not about me. So I thought I'd post here.

I will start a new job after I finish the week at my current crappie job, I have mixed emotions. I don't enjoy the work at all, I swore to myself, no matter what, after I finished my degree program I wouldn't be pressured into taking a job in this field. Well, I need a job and the pay is good.

I’m sitting here feeling lonely and hopeless. This isn't how it was supposed to go for me, I had big dreams. I studied hard, put in the work, and now I'm still at home staying in the same town I swore to escape. I can see it happening already I'm falling down the rabbit hole. Sinking deeper and deeper. I promised I’d be something, but I’m still nothing. And before I get the comments about how I’m worthy and somebody I know I'm not. I'm no one. Sometimes I think that nobody would notice if I wasn't here, the worst part? I know only three people that would even care at all.

My parents don't get it. My dad commented when I mentioned missing therapy that after I start the new job I won’t need therapy because I’ll be too tired to be depressed. And my mom, she told me to just be happy for once, that she couldn't understand why it (my anxiety depression) comes out when I should be happy.

I hate everything right now. I wish I had someone to talk to.

[tofler]

Really sorry to hear that you're feeling lonely and hopeless and also missing your therapy session, especially at a time when you really need to talk things through with someone. Any idea how long you'll have to wait for your next therapy appointment? Sounds like your parents don't have a helpful and supportive attitude towards your mental health. It's good that you're reaching out on here and letting us know how you're feeling. I know it's nothing like therapy, but hopefully it'll help a little bit.

[Bookishbunny in reply to tofler]

Hopefully I can get in next week if i can get an appointment thx 4 the reply

[Sueislove]

Sorry you are going through what sounds to be a really crummy times😢sending positive vibes your way and a big hug! I’m here if you need to talk with someone I know how hard it is with people in your life not understanding how this can’t just go away it takes time . I hope the new job will bring some baby steps in a better direction

[Funkyfaerie]

I don't know how old you are, not that it really matters, but it takes time to he what you want to be and where you want to be, we all have dreams but unfortunately we have to wait, the time will be right one day you'll see. Don't keep fretting about all your disappointments and work your self up and feel bad. Have those goals in your head, work hard and one day everything will fall into place, don't let your dream go.In the meantime you need help, your therapy appointment is a medical appointment, you dont have to tell them what it is, Jyst say you have a hospital appointment, they can't stop you going to that surely. Or can you get a telephone appointment to tide you over for now, I know they are not the same, but it might help a little... Don't give up!! xx

[cds231]

I have a different situation, but some similar experiences. I'm at a point where I have worked hard my whole life for where I'm at today. From the outside it looks like I'm a success and I always meet my goals through grinding hard work, and yet I'm so confused as to why I still feel sh*tty about myself and my life. I finally (after probably 25 years of hiding it) told my parents how I feel, how my nervous system works, and opened up about my anxiety and depression, and I was met with the same response as your mom, "why can't you just be happier?" It's hard for people that are not in touch with their feelings and are low in empathy (at least in my parent's case) to understand, or even try to.

I literally just joined this site today and have been looking for others to talk to, and who can understand how I feel. It's tough to find real connection when everyone is so busy all the time, including myself. So just know, you're not alone and I'm happy to talk if that's what you need.