Anxious, need someone to talk to

[BellaStarXX]

I had a good day yesterday. I was able to eat and I was not anxious but this morning I woke up with congestion and it went downhill from the moment I woke up (I deal with health anxiety). I started worrying about my health. I called off work and I even felt like throwing up but nothing came out. I feel like my life is getting out of control to the point where I might lose my job for calling off so often but I don’t want to go to work and start crying in front of everyone when I get overwhelmed with my anxiety. Does anyone have time to talk to me. I’m in my room watching a show, trying to distract myself but it is not helping much. If I go to my mom I feel like she won’t understand what I’m going through. I don’t know what to do.

[Lvee]

Hi! 😊 I want you while your reading this take 3 deep breath on every breath going slowly. In your mind chant this mantra “ I breath in healing energy and breath out fear” repeat it until you calm down. 💜

[BellaStarXX in reply to Lvee]

Thank you. I feel more calm

[Lvee in reply to BellaStarXX]

There you go you did it! Your doing a great job being active in this community was one of my many resources I collected to combat my anxiety. Being honest and transparent with your journey of healing is vital in your success. Speak up let people try to empathize with you. Don’t isolate yourself it’s damaging your energy protect it. By receiving love and giving love we replenish our health. Learn about anxiety check out books 📚 that’s help me a lot I’m currently reading one now. By understand how anxiety works we are able to combat it and reach balance.

Don’t focus on your indigestion it may be bc of high stress that you are having those issues. I went through that myself of loose stools with everything I ate bc it was the high stress that was rushing my digestion.

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Maybe you are actually with flu, it's flu season. Your job can't fire you for being sick, you have rights. Your mind and body are probably overwhelmed and you just need to take a day off. Have some crackers for nausea, chicken noodle soup for cough and cold symptoms. Rest your mind and body, it's your day off. Watch tv, movie, sleep, whatever makes you feel a bit better. Flu is no fun so you won't feel great. Feel better, your mind and body are just telling you to take a day off.

[Absmister]

Hi I have a similar problem to you. I have a panic disorder which was triggered from PTSD and now I'm also obsessed with my health. Mainly because the panic attacks cause me to have physical pain such as chest and back pain, increased heart rate, headaches. I keep thinking I'm having a heart attack! I constantly go on google with my symptoms and it can send me into a frenzy which then triggers another panic attack. My biggest saviour has been mindfulness meditation. This will teach you to focus on relaxing and to let your thoughts come and go. I think of my thoughts as clouds passing through the sky. Let them pass rather then adding to them. I used an app at first but after a couple of weeks can do it by myself now. The app is called mindfulness and the first 10 sessions are free but you can play them over and over so don't need to pay. Your thoughts can actually make you feel sick when you are perfectly healthy. You are more than your thoughts, focus on your breathing. Take a bath or put on some essential oils to calm your nerves. Stay strong, your more powerful than you realise!

[BellaStarXX in reply to Absmister]

Thank you. Your words mean so much. Every time I get sick the first thought I have is to go to Urgent Care or the ER because I think something is seriously wrong. But just thinking of going to the hospital gives me more anxiety. Has this ever happened to you? Breathing techniques help me relax but soon after all these thoughts come rushing back in.

[Absmister in reply to BellaStarXX]

Yes exactly the same! It's horrible, I've had an ambulance called out to me 3 times in the past 3 weeks. I know what you mean about the breathing as well, everybody says focus on the breathing but then it comes back. The breathing is great during the panic. Your panic attack will only last about 20 mins if you do this. Whats happening is your thoughts are making your brain release adrenaline which will rush through your body and takes roughly 20 mins to break down again. This is natural and actually good, it means your body is working correctly. This happens even on a small scale, it's just your flight/fight response. My last call out I was actually calm and not thinking at all but my body just tightened up anyway. I've had blood test, a brain scan and ACG, all came back perfectly healthy. I had no idea stress was so powerful! I've realised stress builds up so we kind of have to break it down again by doing things that relax us. Trust me your body is made of strong stuff and your mind is even stronger. There's a documentary on netflix called 'heal' which changed the way I looked at the anxiety, might be on youtube as well. Did you have this problem as a child?

[BellaStarXX in reply to Absmister]

No, I never had this problem. It started about a year and a half ago. I felt sick and weak with no appetite and I went to the doctors and they said everything looked fine but I didn’t feel fine. Eventually it went away after a month or so. I started feeling like this again about two weeks ago When I got sick for like two days with fever ( I feel like I get sick a lot). And then all these worse case scenario thoughts started flowing in. I was fine yesterday but then I got nasal congestion over night and then it freaked me out all over again. I’ve been crying all day (I can’t control it). I just hope that I feel better tomorrow. Thanks for talking with me. It helps to know that someone is out there going through the same thing.

[Absmister in reply to BellaStarXX]

That's good though because now you know it's something that has developed so it can be solved. Anxiety will keep coming back if it's not addressed. I would recommend counselling to find the route of your worries. Me telling my body I was ill actually makes my body ill. When I thought it was my lungs, I couldn't breath. When I thought it was my heart, it raced and my chest hurt. When I thought it was my brain, I got headaches. Currently I'm on my knees and they have been hurting for a couple of days now. I'm slowly unlocking the route of my worries and I'm getting better. It all sounds ridiculous and it was to me at first, but going through it I understand now. No worries, free to talk anytime. It's nice to know you are the same also. I know I will be better soon and I know one day you will be too! Chin up! Definitely check out 'heal' doc. if you can