My Story (newbie)

[stepuptotheteal]

I have not been professionally diagnosed but I just know I have depression. Recently things have gotten way out of my control. My so called "boyfriend" dumped me, I more than likely lost my best friend, i have stopped talking to any and everyone, cut off social media so its just me and my thoughts. I want well I NEED a therapist but its not something I can afford and going to my parents about this is not an option. Funny thing is, I feel pretty normal, I take showers (for the most part), I go to school, I play games I used to go out with friends and enjoy myself you know normal stuff but I just know deep down I'm not where I want to be, I'm not happy. He was giving me hope something to hold on to and that just vanished along with everything else. I feel lost and most of me, definitely don't want to be here.

[Agora1]

Dear new friend, you are young, but this is something that hurts deeplyno matter what age. This is one of the reasons we need to always love ourselves

first and foremost. Be our own friend in times of need. A relationship is something

that should enhance our lives and not be so dependent on another person.

Rather than calling this depression (which is a serious mental condition) it might

be better to state you are SAD. Sadness goes in and out of our lives for many reasons

during our lifetime mostly because of the loss of people we cared for.

Allow yourself time to get over your loss by not cutting yourself off from the outside

world. You need to live and not just exist.

I'm happy to Welcome you to this wonderful forum of caring friends. Through our

own experiences in life you will no longer feel so alone. We learn from each other

because we know what it's like and most of all because we care,. xx

[stepuptotheteal in reply to Agora1]

That failed relationship isnt all there is to my depression. Mentally im just not ok, never was and I dont feel I ever will be. But I totally understand and thanks for replying.

[Agora1 in reply to stepuptotheteal]

I hear you....I'm so sorry in how you are feeling xx

[Teresaq]

I hope you doing well. Keep in mind your still full of life. Maybe you needed a break from social media and this crazy world. Start hobby, bake, meditation, sewing, fashion something to help you keep busy and feel that empty void. Only God has your plan written out! He's not the one, you'll see only matter of time be patient with yourself. I was there once it just takes time. Be well dm if you need a friend 🙏

[Mrspjsmom]

There may be programs where you live that offer payment on sliding scale. You could also contact your PCP who may prescribe something to help. My daughter went through something similar and is still getting past it. She has made alot of progress but these things take time. I believe in you and know you will get past this one step at a time. We are always here to help.

[autumnmarie5]

Welcome to HU! I hate to hear you are going through this and it always saddens my heart to hear people feel like this. Maybe you can get diagnosed and get some medicine to help make it more manageable. Is there a reason you can't go to your parents about it? Maybe that might be what you NEED to do, not what you want but what you need? I don't know anything other than what you wrote so I'm just trying to find ways to make it better. I know I have researched a lot to do with anxiety and depression and maybe you can try some at home therapy for the time being until you are able to reach out. I also have a few mediation apps that really help me in times like those. If you ever need someone to talk to i'm a message away. I'm in my twenties and I completely understand what you are going through and everyone expects us to not have any worries due to our age but unfortunately that isn't the case. I will be praying for you, my friend!! 😊

[live-2021]

I'm sorry you're going through this. 1st a break up is really hard on people that don't suffer with depression, so I know it sucks. Others are correct in not allowing him more power than he should have. Easier said than done. You mentioned you don't have the money for counseling, but if you are a student you might be able to get help that away. Check with your school counselors. Depending on your age you may be able to get services free or discounted. You could also check the free clinics too see what they could help you find. We are always here. Good luck and don't give up.

[Midori]

The end of a relationship which you've put a lot into is like a bereavement, and in just the same way you need to grieve the loss of the relationship. It's perfectly normal, and eventually you will find yourself ready to try the dating game again.

Just do it in your own way, in your own time, don't allow folk to rush you into anything. Good Luck!

Cheers, Midori.

[designguy]

Hi and welcome to the site. You might check with a counselor at your school about resources for therapy and see what they recommend. Most schools anymore have these services or the resources for them available for their students.