Total Newbie!

Good morning. I finally joined after many attempts and am really forcing myself to communicate. I stay away from online communities because I don't need another thing to obsess about and swallow my time Plus, my social anxiety extends to the internet too apparently - which is something I didn't think was possible..

I am struggling with a major depression trying to take me over again and I want to do what I can to fight it. I have lost so much of my life to it as I know so many of you can relate. I am very isolated because of course that's where I feel the most safe - by myself. I don't want to be this person but honestly, I just don't have a lot of motivation to get out and be with people.

I don't know how many 50+ are reading but it's a challenging time of life to say the least.

So here I am and I hope not to delete my profile again

I wish everyone a peaceful day.

[hypercat54]

Hi nice to meet you and welcome to the site. I am so glad you have finally joined and posted as this is a very good site with helpful and supportive members.

You are right - we have all lost part of our lives to depression and/or anxiety and the great thing about a site like this is that we all get it. No one here judges anyone else and it is a safe place.

I have suffered from depression since childhood and am now in my 60's. It's not so much having lost myself from depression but never knowing anything else and learning to deal with it and adapt accordingly. I do sometimes wonder what sort of person I would have been without it but will never know now I guess. Most of the time it is manageable but occasionally it overwhelms me so I try to avoid stress and hassle as much as possible as this makes it worse. I lead a simple life but it suits me.

I am sure others will be in soon. x

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Thanks for your response! I too try to lead a pretty low key life. I also - whenever possible - stay away from high strung personalities. I am just learning that being a HSP is a real thing and it seems to define me almost to a tee. As much as I wouldn't wish anxiety or depression or any struggle on anyone, it is comforting to know there are others who can relate and help you through. Although, I have told my husband that it would be helpful if, for just a nanosecond, he could feel what I feel at my worst point in order to help him understand it. I feel bad for him because he has to put up with me at those times.

Today will be a good day. Enjoy it!

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hi angel,this is your first step to enjoy the thoughts of so many marveless people,you can

safely tell them your problems no matter how bad it my seem,theese people will never

put you down,critisiese you,so feel free to listen or tell you story looking forward angel

to more blogs from you.

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Thank you for your welcoming words. I am happy to be here and finally communicating. I hope you have a stress-free, peaceful day

[mysmugcat]

Hello. Please stay with us.

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I will certainly try! I have noticed so many are animal lovers here and that is very important to me. They are angels on earth and I couldn't imagine life without them. They remind us to live in the moment. I hope you have a wonderful day~

[g33kgirl86]

Hello and welcome, you have come to the right place. Everyone is really nice here and supportive. I too have lost a lot to depression and anxiety. I struggle to get outside so I lean on my friend. He likes to drive so we often drive in the car and ate in the car, eventually to places.

Do you have anyone that you could lean on?

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Yes, thankfully I have a super supportive husband to the point of possibly being an enabler. But he just wants me happy and if staying home makes me feel safe, he doesn't push. I do go to work of course but if I could have my office at home I probably would. I know that isolation is wrong and the worst thing to do. I normally walk with my dogs daily but they are elderly now and not always up for it. Plus it's cold here with snow on the sidewalks so it's not always possible. My siblings are wonderful but they don't know to what extend my anxiety and depression actually go and I like to keep that part of me to myself.

Life is full of peaks and valleys and right now I feel more on a peak but teetering if that makes any sense? I have to watch what I eat too because it makes a huge difference in my emotions. Yesterday I ate all junk food sad to say but today is a different day

I hope it's a good one for you.

[pink318]

Hi- Welcome to the forum. I’m happy that you finally decided to be here. This is a good place to find support and encouragement. I hope you will be blessed.

I pray that you will stay strong no matter what.

Please keep on posting. Have a beautiful day, God bless.

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Thank you☺️