Holiday is almost finished

[vanessi]

I’ve been the last few days in France in the city where I used to live. I thought I needed a break to think and be on my own. Be alone to solve some stuff that I couldn’t do when I suddenly moved.

Things with the French guy started good. We talked and try to put a end but instead he told me he loved me and wanted me and so on. I felt him honest. But now he doesn’t care anymore that I am still here. I feel a very disappointed because of that but at least I’m ok with myself for the effort and for having kept my promises. I really doubt to come back again.

I can’t wait to return home, I feel just exactly I felt when I lived here. And it was exactly what I was trying to avoid. I desperately need someone who can help me.

I miss my boyfriend so much, he is the only one who doesn’t let me alone when I feel bad. I really need to seek for professional help as I can’t cope with this situation anymore.

That was an update, I’m going home on Sunday.

[Hidden]

Go home to your boyfriend and be happy, make your own friends and forget about France and everyone on it.

Don't look back, look forward.

Take care.

[vanessi in reply to Hidden]

Yes. I just realized this never gonna be my place but I wish I didn’t feel like this. I’m very vulnerable today. I feel horrendous. I’m flying tomorrow

[Hidden in reply to vanessi]

It will pass, just get home and back to some sort of normality.

[vanessi in reply to Hidden]

I can’t wait to be at my home. It’s gonna take me too long to get over this.

[Hidden in reply to vanessi]

It will be worth it in the end..

[vanessi in reply to Hidden]

I hope so because I was 2 days crying because I didn’t want to come and now I feel worse than before I came.

[Hidden in reply to vanessi]

Well, I hope you feel better when you get back home.

[Mrspjsmom]

You are very brave for going back to try resolving things. Even though you feel badly now you have your answers. That's not the place for you. Wishing you safe travels and peace.

[vanessi in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Thank you so much. I wish I didn’t feel bad even I got my answers. I just want to go to my home in Ireland and leave all this in the past but it’s so difficult to me.

[Mrspjsmom in reply to vanessi]

Hopefully in time the answers you found will help.

[vanessi in reply to Mrspjsmom]

I really hope so

[vanessi]

Thanks

[Blueruth in reply to vanessi]

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