What I would say to my ex...

[Thefluffiestofnuggs]

Ig it's really not going to matter after Thursday I won't ever see this chat again... but it's good enough closure since you're too mad and done with me to say goodbye and I don't want to burden you with it Thursday... I'm sorry I didn't do it sooner but at least everyone will be happy... just promise me to be there for the girls... be there for each other and move on... I'm sorry I wish there was another way but I'll never be happy and that's the worst part... I can do this and I won't ever have to worry about it again and I won't have to be a burden anymore... everything will be okay... I want you to take everything... all of it... everything thats in my room... its all going to be thrown away anyway so it won't matter what you do with it I just want it to be you that throws it away... you know more about all of that stuff than any of them... it would mean the world to me... I wish we could've done the things we said we were going to do but that's life... and I'm grateful for the things we did do... I'm glad you were a part of my life for as long as you were... I never deserved you... but I'm glad you stayed for as long as you did... I hope you find someone that loves you for who you truly are... you deserve that after all this time... and im sure you will... you and smom and Monica are going to do great things I just know it... you guys are so amazing and I never deserved you guys walking in my life and trying your hardest to make things better... but you did... its just too late to fix things now... and I wish I could be stronger I really do... thank you for everything...

[hypercat54]

Hi this sounds like you are intending to do permanent harm to yourself by Thursday? Please don't. You are only 19 and are much too young to give up yet. I am a lot older than you and thought like this at your age and before but I in the end I concentrated instead on how to live, not die and you can do the same.

Put all your energy into learning how to live and make your life worthwhile to you, it doesn't matter what others think as it is your life to do with what you want. I hope you won't choose to end it before you have given yourself enough time to start changing it for the better.

Do you have any support system? Have you sought medical help at all? Please do all these and give them a chance to help before making any permanent decisions. You have nothing to lose after all and lots to gain. Have hope and faith and keep communicating with us. Many of us have been where you are so we totally get it and we will help and support you all the way. Give us a chance- why not?

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So sorry - have you received this note yourself or are you contemplating sending it to someone? If the latter and you turned that note around so that you were the recipient I wonder how that would make you feel? And the girls are these your children or the person you have recieved the note from? The author is not thinking clearly such a note would impact the health and wellbeing of those girls tremendously not least the recipient.

Whoever the author is, it certainly sounds like they are listening to internal dialogue which may not actually be the way things truly are, how can this person go along with their internal dialogue when it is so destructive to so many lives. Here there is an opportunity to change the internal dialogue to one that is the voice of reason. one that can be creative in discovering an alternative way to consider the best way forward for all concerned.

A way that does not cause such traumatic distress.

Sit back take a breather, let time pass, stay in the calm and disregard the voice in the author's head that is causing such distress. say to it -- be gone, keep bringing yourself back to breathing, the calm - go to a park and sit with some wildlife, watch the bees visiting flowers, even when you can't physically go there you can create the vision and imagery in your mind, this internal story is far greater and kinder to all concerned.

At 19 years you have a whole lot of living left to do, you can make it one that visits the park often and see beyond the current way of thinking to find a better way..

Whoever this person is, do encourage them to seek professional help at this time.

There is never just one way to live our life, and there are so many more stories we can write into our life, may these always enrich your spirit and all those you may come into contact with.

Blessings and encouragement to live your best life.

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