What I Wanted To Say

I wanted to tell you how much it

melts my heart when I hear your voice.

I wanted to say that I love you;

that I'm still waiting for you to love me, too.

I wanted to tell you that I'm sorry for

letting you go and that my life hasn't

been the same since the day you left.

I wanted you to know that no matter

where you are or who you're with,

I'll always be here under the same

midnight moon, wishing on the

same shooting star, and praying the

same pleading prayer; that one day

you'll see that no one will ever

love you as much as I do..

But what I wanted to say remains

confined inside a bitter heart broken

by what could've been; held captive

by a mere mention of the weather.

I wanted you to accept me..

I wanted you to appreciate me..

I wanted to grow old with you..

But there was no good ending.

There was no "happily ever after"

There was no redemption in our story.

We were just a childish love;

two hearts torn apart by time.

What we called "love" was carried away

by the butterflies in our bellies.

What we called our "future" has faded

with all the memories of us..

(or at least those that gave me hope.)

And now it's like it never happened..

It was all fabricated and fantasized;

like the words I wanted to say.

[Agora1]

wow some dude, poetically and beautifully said,

straight from your heart.

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Thank you

[Emily16]

I share your pain.

[Hidden in reply to Emily16]

Yeah, it sucked. I wrote this years ago, though. I've got new problems now, lol. I wish a broken heart was the worse of them.

[Emily16 in reply to Hidden]

It’s currently happening to me. I never saw us ending. I still don’t but I’m not the one who holds all the cards.

[Hidden in reply to Emily16]

Right. Just know that you don't have to do anything. Just live your life and enjoy the relationships in your life that can't be broken up. And, if you have to force it, it'll never work. You can't compromise being treated with dignity - it's not good for you. Just know that if he's not the one for you, it's okay to let go. If he is, he'll be there eventually. Just let it go for now. Write about it. Turn it into something beautiful.

[Emily16 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for this!! I needed to hear it.

[Hidden in reply to Emily16]

I hope it all works out for you, Emily. You seem like a beautiful, smart young lady that just wants to be loved so let people love you and love them back like it was your last day to do so. I mean it. Life happens quick. You lose people. It's part of it. Make memories that will last when they're gone - the kind that make you sigh and smile.

[Hidden in reply to Emily16]

Something to write about, I guess.

[NCAQuilter in reply to Hidden]

Your writing is beautiful. I'd love to read more of it. And your insightful answer to Emily was moving.

[Hidden in reply to NCAQuilter]

Thanks. I've had some lessons.

[NCAQuilter in reply to Hidden]

And they sound like painful ones. Sorry to hear that. But, sometimes the most beautiful art comes from deep pain. Your art is beautiful!

[Hidden in reply to NCAQuilter]

And you can read what I've posted here by clicking on my picture, I think.