Dealing with the Roller Coaster of emptions

[Jaxe1978]

HI everyone i hope you week is off to a good start, i'm about 6 weeks into my latest episode and with the help of medicine and therapy and finally start to mix in some ok days in each week. By ok i mean not terrible where i'm imbolized but not myself either, just ok. Which is a significant improvement over the last moth and half. I'm find joy again in watching my two young boys play together which i am so thankful for, they are my heart! The part i'm struggling with is that after an ok, and actually Saturday i felt probably 75% myself but woke up Sunday very anxious, which lead my depression to start creeping up much more than its has been. I know this is a process and its not a one way up or one way down, but i get so anxious after having ok or good days when the next ones not, i am so afraid that I'm going to back slide in the horribleness of a couple weeks ago, really stuggle to manage and accept the roller coast that this is, any suggestion on how you've cope with that would be greatly appreciated!

[Matrix45]

If you don’t mind me asking, what usually triggers the anxiety?

[Jaxe1978 in reply to Matrix45]

Hi Matrix i'm new to anxiety i've been dealing with depression since puberty but this anxiety thing is brand new to me. I've been speaking with a therapist and it seems to have originated with a lot of uncertainty on what work is going looking like in the 2-4 months, i starting to realize my put to much of my self identify into my job, so I'm pretty sure that what started, but its morphed as well, is that every morning i wak up with some anxiety relating to the works stuff, but after have a good day i get anxious about not feeling great and start to worry that i'm going to back slide to the way i was feeling a coupel week ago with terrifies me. Thanks for reach out !

[Matrix45 in reply to Jaxe1978]

I get it man..not knowing what’s gonna happen next when it involves the ability to support yourself financially will make anyone worry. I hope you find a way to shift the odds In your favor Jaxe, take care 🙏🏾

[Jaxe1978 in reply to Matrix45]

thank you!

[cbgrace1980]

I'm so glad things are improving over all for you. I also struggle with depression and anxiety and I try to focus on the good things instead of worrying about the bad. I try to only think about today and not get carried away thinking about tomorrow. Are you working with a counselor? That has helped me a lot, but also sharing with friends that struggle as well has helped me, too. Hang in there!

[Jaxe1978 in reply to cbgrace1980]

Thank you for sharing. I have started to see a therapist it’s helping with the anxiety depression is still a work in progress. Thanks again