think and it shall be: please read

[torpe]

I say this all with honesty and love, know this much to be true—people are addicted to suffering. I know this because I once was. I resented the notion of positive thinking and betterment because my comfort was in the darkness that I knew so well. For most of my life, I’ve been severely depressed…so much so that it caused me physical, crushing pain daily. Happiness seems like something unattainable that can be taken away so easily. Why is it that we don’t see pain the same way? It is addiction to suffering because in a sense it is a constant like a twisted, perverted love. A loveless marriage that you don’t want to leave because you’ve been together for so long and it’s all you know; it’s become who you think you are. What if I told you it doesn’t have to be? I know most will think “Oh, it’s easier said than done.” or think I’m full of it. We are the leaders of our own lives. To relinquish that power is a bliss untouched and impenetrable. An illness of your own making from your own brain is really all it is. I am vastly aware of trauma being a large factor because believe me, the things I’ve been dealt cause me at times to look back and question how I got to this place. Think about it. Do you honestly wish to be happy? Do you wish to make your life better? Or do you rest in hurt and pain that has carried you thus far? Depression is a fake friend. One that acts as though it supports you in its comfort, but is always talking you down. You are the creator of your own reality. You are in charge. Pinch your own flesh and tell me it isn’t your own body. A vast majority of people do not wish to better their lives because they are hooked on the masochism. If you’ve made it this far, go back and read my old posts. I lie to you not, I once was there as well. I am not talking as though I am above others because I found my way out, I simply wish to help be inspiration that you too can find a way out. It’s all up to you and your willingness to create a better life for you and those around you. Excuses further prove addiction, really think about it. You can create your heaven on earth if you are truly tired of living in pain. I’m here if anyone wants to chat as I’d really love to help others any way I can. You are so loved. You are so cared for. I love you. 💖

[Hidden]

This is a truly inspiring post, trope, I thank you deeply for it. We all need to read and then re-read your words.

[torpe in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for thinking so!!! It is truly a worthy journey, my friend. 💖

[Agora1]

torpe, your post is as amazing as you are. Thank you, we need more positive posts filled with hopefulness as yours. xx

[torpe in reply to Agora1]

Well, thank you for saying that, my friend it brings me great joy that you found goodness in this…thank you for thinking that i am amazing!!! i think you’re amazing as well and wish nothing but love and happiness to flow into your life 💖

[Agora1 in reply to torpe]

I appreciate the good wishes you sent my way and wish you peace and joy in your lifeas well. xx