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Life is such a pain in the ass lol I gotta air some complaints~

Family sucks! I moved out a year ago and my mom & grandma (who I lived with for a long time) aren’t handling it well. They constantly guilt me for leaving them. But I’m 27, and it shouldn’t be my fault my mom is an alcoholic who won’t do anything to improve her life. I just want a nice, as normal as possible family.

Doctors suck!! I got put on a monthly shot for migraines and it gives me SEVERE panic and anxiety, worse than my normal anxiety. I’m struggling to leave the house, and the doctor claims it can’t cause anxiety (Google says differently) and that I’m fine.

Meds suck! I feel like my depression/anxiety meds need to be switched up but I can’t tell bc of the migraine shot ******* with my mood. I have to wait until it’s out of my system to see what “normal on the pills I’m on” feels like. And since the shot has a long life in you, my psychiatrist is just giving me more and more anxiety meds (which I really need to function right now but I wish I didn’t need them).

Scheduling therapy is impossible??? Idk if it’s bc things are back to normal and people are scheduling appointments again but I’ve reached out to so many therapists. They either aren’t accepting new patients or straight up don’t call back.

I really, really want to be happy and normal and chill- especially since it’s my summer (I’m a teacher) and this is really my only time to enjoy my time and relax.

If you read all of this, thank you! If not, I totally understand bc it’s very long

😂😩🙃😭

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leaningonjesus

i feel your frustration big timehave you tried delta8 gummies for calm/ relaxation? if not, highly reccomend- its natural, non addictive, and really mellows one out.

prayers and hugs for you tonight

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Laurennnnnnn in reply to leaningonjesus

Thank you so much! 💙

And no, I actually haven’t heard of delta8 gummies, thanks for the recommendation!! I’ll definiteky look into it

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Laurennnnnnn in reply to leaningonjesus

I just googled them, thank you so so much for telling me about them! I’ve actually been looking for edibles to help with calming but never know what to look for.

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Jilly87 in reply to Laurennnnnnn

Have you ever tried CBD tincture? I tried one off of Amazon (they technically arent supposed to sell it there but they get around it pretty easily and you can Google each brand to find out if they really contain CBD) I got some for sleep when I was havong severe insomnia and theyvwere very relaxing. That's an idea if you want something MJ based without the THC element. I do find it odd that they saybit doesnt get you high, because I definitely felt high if I took enough, but that could be because Full Spectrum legally contains up to 3% THC. LOL, I need to take my own advice. I'm having bad anxiety from stomach issues due constipation from Methadone Maintenance - I've clearly not been doing well with self care or I would have taken something BEFORE I had a problem. Oh, that reminds me. Have you ever tried Wild Lettuce capsules? They are AMAZING for anxiety and sleep. I've tried two different brands on AMZ and both were great. The first was called Zazzee, and the ones I'm taking now are called Carlyle. Only reason I switched was due to these being cheaper. If you give either a try, let me know if they worked for you. LOL, I wish I could find a psychiatrist willing to give me something for anxiety, but I guess it's for the best that I don't go looking, because even though I *think* I could use them responsibly, one stressful day with my toddler and who knows? Anyway, sorry for the really long post. I'll try to format better in the future but I'm too tired RN. I hope you feel better soon! ❤

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Laurennnnnnn in reply to Jilly87

Thank you so much for all of the advice!! I’ve tried CBD before but I don’t think it was the best brand or a high enough dose or something. I took three more than you’re supposed to once and it did nothing lol. So I’ll look into the brands you suggested. I’m not against having some THC but sometimes it makes me more anxious so I would love CBD if I found one that worked. So I’m excited to try what you suggested!!

I really wish psychiatrists would find some middle ground!! They either push waaaay too many pills (like mine now) or they’re totally against them. But yes, if I had to spend a day with a toddler too I’d probably need a handful of Xanax. I teach kindergarten but any kid younger than that is hell to me 😂😂😂

And no need to apologize!! I really am thankful for your detailed answer 💙

Hi, a lot of things totally suck for me too. The world is in disarray these days. I don't understand how things have gotten so bad. Try to get some sleep and distract from all the negative stuff.

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Laurennnnnnn in reply to

It is crazy these days!! These last couple years have just snowballed in every way possible.

And thank you 💙

All of that sounds really overwhelming and it's good that yo decided to vent. I am sorry the shot to help your migraine has increased your anxiety. That is very difficult. I know how it feels to feel helpless with your anxiety and I also find it hard to leave my home and go outside. It's very challenging even on the good days. So I know exactly how you feel because we want to live a normal life again but with our issues as they are it becomes impossible and it makes us feel awful about ourselves. Do things at your own pace right now because pushing to hard can cause you shut down and potentially get worse. So do what you can withing your means. I know it's difficult but it's better than having a breakdown.

Your family guilt tripping you is just awful. You should not feel bad for starting your life as you are an adult who can take care of themselves. If you need to put some distance between yourself and your family, just for the time being until you are better able to mange things. You are allowed your own space and you are allowed to take breaks from whomever you want to for your own mental health.

All of your frustration is valid and understandable. Hopefully you can find some time to get some self care in, even if it's just drinking some warm tea at night before bed. You deserve the rest. I am sorry you are having to deal with all of this right now.

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Laurennnnnnn in reply to

Ahhh thank you thank you thank you!! I appreciate you so much, this is what I needed to read

😭💙

Thanks for telling me to do what I can and not push it. I always feel bad when I do that but I know you’re right. It is better than a breakdown, which I’m close to.

And I am trying to create space with them. It’s just so hard, I feel bad about it. But I’m getting there because boundaries are important and so is my own peace.

in reply to Laurennnnnnn

Exactly. I know it super frustrating, I am currently at a point where walking to my mailbox is a huge victory for me. And if I push harder I end up shutting down or having a massive panic attack. It is really hard especially when you feel you are not doing enough but the key point here is to understand you are doing enough for yourself and that is all that matters. Other people be damned you are the important one right now, and I am glad I could remind you of that.

I know creating space and boundaries are very difficult. It's even harder when the people we are trying to get space from make us feel bad for setting those boundaries. It's a shitty feeling because we feel like we are doing something wrong when in fact it's the other party who is doing something wrong. Never be upset for standing up for your mental health. You matter and deserve a break and you deserve to be treated well. If others can't respect that then they are in the wrong and you are not cruel or selfish for ignoring them for a little while. I know how hard this can be so if you ever want to talk even if it's just to have a friendly chat I am always available and you can PM anytime.

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Laurennnnnnn in reply to

Thank you so much for your kind words!! And I definitely will PM you, thanks 💙💙

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creativewalker

omg so sorry Laurennnnn, I feel you on that. The migraine/anxiety meds thing sounds challenging and I can only imagine how distressful it must be for you.

Also relate to the family drama and pressure. And difficulties finding a therapist.

Not sure if you were looking for advice or just wanted to vent. The advice I can think of is to keep trying with therapists. I found that going through insurance lists didn't give me the best luck. I use google searches for the kind of therapy I think I'd have a benefit with e.g. Cognitive Behavioral, or Dialectic Behavioral, EMDR, etc. and that's been slightly better for me.

Hope this helps and hang in there. I know things are looking difficult but you're on a journey that will be very beneficial to you and your mental peace. Sending you luck and love

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Laurennnnnnn in reply to creativewalker

Omg!!! I cannot thank you enough. I’ve been looking for therapists through the insurance lists and it just does not work lol. Then I read your advice about googling the type of therapy I want, and pretty much immediately found some. And I’m in the process of getting an appointment!!! I was so discouraged about honestly about to give up the search so thank you so so so much! 💙

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Laurennnnnnn

Awh thank you so much!! 😭💙

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creativewalker

I'm so so glad to hear this! You just made my morning by sharing this with me and closing the loop. I always want to help because I've learned all these tips and tricks learning to navigate the healthcare system over the past year. Thank you and good luck to you!

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