Hi everyone: 10 months ago I did a very foolish thing. I inadvertently posted my anxiety and depression struggles on my Facebook page. I thought I was posting within the anxiety and depression Facebook group that I was in however was on my own personal page, I was so embarrassed that when I found out that a few friends read it, I told them that I was hacked and that I did not write the post. Some who knew of my current struggles said it sounded like me as I mentioned specific meds whereas others who have no clue what I am going through said they knew it couldn’t have been me. Bottom line: I am humiliated and embarrassed to no end and cannot get this situation out of my head, I have visited psychologists and psychiatrists who tell me that my thoughts are irrational and that I need to move on as most if not all of the people who read my deep, dark post have surely forgotten about it and have moved on with their lives. I do not sleep well and have lost interest in most things that I used to enjoy. I am told that my mode of thinking is a form of ocd and that I need some type of anti depressant yet I can’t quite find the right one to deal with the rumination. This was a traumatic experience for me and I fear that if I don’t somehow get past it, I will have no true enjoyment in my life.
Thoughts ... ? Anyone have success with any specific meds that help with rumination/trauma.