I’m over being alive and trying so hard when no one gives a shit about me. I’m so lonely and I’m tired of begging people to want to be around me. My sister told me that i was just sad (as in pitiful not the emotion) after I asked her to hang out. I’m tired. I can’t sleep. My body is failing me. I can’t find a therapist. I can’t figure out how to set up my stupid banking app. No pharmacy in my area has ever heard of my new prescription and the doctor won’t answer me. I hate being alive.
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WOW! You got alot of stuff happening to you right now! I feel your frustration in your post. Take a deep breath. Be in the moment as your read my post. You can handle this. Take one thing at a time. You can find support and friends here on this site. Friends that care and "give a shit about you" People that do not have depression and anxiety have no clue what we are going through. So don't rely on them. Rely on people that know how your are feeling. I fully understand about not finding a therapist. They are hard to find. I'm not endorsing it, but I use cerebral.com. I have a psychiatrist and therapist on the site and get my medication through them. One stop shop. There are other online therapist that maybe a better fit for you. Check them out. I see you go by the name bookishbunny. You read alot of books? What are some of them? Please share, you very well find other book people here.
Yes! It’s about a girl with OCD solving a mystery. It’s supposed to show that unlike in the media OCD isn’t a super power and how little the world understands it. It’s also the reason I got diagnosed.
I don't read a whole lot, but I wanted to show you someone gives a damn about you that I spent a few moments to google search this book. It does sound interesting. So true that the world (people) have little understanding on various mental health issues we go through. I too know very little about OCD. I do skin picking which I'm told is an OCD, but really it's because of my anxiety.Luna Child has a post that today (8-9) is National Book Lovers Day. Check it out.
I do give a shit about you! I’m sorry for what you are going through, I understand and can relate.Please don’t give up. I know life can very difficult and not fair. Maybe just work on one thing at a time. You said your body is failing you. Do you eat healthy? That will help. Here are some of the things I eat that help me: roasted or baked chicken, tuna, a good salad, pumpkin seeds, liver wurst, orange juice, liquid yogurt. I take vitamins and supplements: B-complex, D3, Magnesium, Turmeric and Omega-3. Exercise: Get some fresh air and go for a walk. Take a swim in a warm therapy pool. Find something to hold onto, something to focus on, something you like.
Watch a comedy movie with popcorn or some snack you like. Talk to someone you trust. Spend some time with a friendly pet. You like books, how about joining a book club. Spend more time at a library, they should have book reading nights. Pray to Heavenly Father for help. He wants to hear from you, he loves you and will listen to you!
This helps me. I start every morning with the Wim Hof guided breathing exercises free on you tube. I do full body cold plunges daily. If you have cold tap water try a bath , and exhale slowly. A gentle way if you don’t want to try that. Is soaking your hands and feet in ice water. They have receptors that talk to the brain. And releases chemicals in the brain and body. You tube has plenty of information on it. The cold water resets to brain and nervous system. Daily cardio exercise is great. Someone said just keep breathing and calm.
My advice is hang on. I have been there too. All the issues can be cleared up. First learn to love yourself. Try to find a group you can relate to. In person group. My Dad was an alcoholic. I found Children of Alcoholics helped. They say "God does not make junk". Not necessarily a religious meaning. I tried suicide several times. So happy it didn't work. Today at 76 I'm very happy. Just hang in.
Try to focus on something positive. You’re focusing on everything that’s wrong. Look at what you can be grateful for and is going right. There has to be SOMETHING!!!
Thanks but no it is not because I focus on the wrong things. Nothing is going good in my life literally at all. That is why I’m am in such a state. My unsupportive father has said this to me many times. It does not help. It simply makes me feel ungrateful.
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