Will this ever be over?

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

(Hi guys. Before I write this I want to say that I have a touch of a cold I think my eyes are burning no real appetite so I’ve just been snacking sniffing nose etc.)

I just feel like I have lost all of my hard work within the past couple of days. Like everything just feels it is unravelled over some over something so small but it almost feels like it was coming for a long time just feels like I’m always on on the steady foundations despite how well On the outside it appears I’m doing and I almost think I’m inside I’m doing well but I always have the sense that something bad is about to happen. Factually all that’s happened really to put me in this position is that yesterday I didn’t really feel like cooking which worried me slightly and then I had a partner you that I thought gave me food poisoning and then today I tried to cook something I don’t feel like it’s all I’ve done is snacked as I did yesterday and that has brought great worry and great anxiety and great stress and made me feel awful and then that’s just made me feel like I’m going wrong again and like I’m suffering with depression I just really don’t know how to adjust or contain myself or even sort of feel alright when bad things happen and feels that the slightest issue happens and it’s a massive thing for me to deal with the rest of the day and I don’t know why that is. Also the fear and expectation that I’m gonna slip right back into this place like it’s my default setting. Just scared that this is my natural state there is someone who is no longer adventurous no longer ambitious has now drive within his life.

[Hidden]

I am so sorry you are feeling so bad. I imagine having a cold is making you feel even worse. Have you told the doctor you are struggling and feel you have depression?

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for your reply and sympathy it was much appreciated! And very helpful and I have mentioned it before but it never really went anywhere. As my anxiety has been more of an urgent issue to be perfectly honest I’m worried about my brain function at the moment it feels like there could be something very wrong it feels slow and I’m misspelling simple things on occasion as well as making errors with cooking and feeling sleepy. And feeling as though the day slips by. When I mentioned this to my dad he said there’s nothing wrong I have a cold plus I’m unemployed that’s why the days feel like that.

[Hidden in reply to Meyer_Gdmnx]

Anxiety can make the brain seem not to function as it was. I know with me mine does. I am sorry your doctor was not very supportive. It may be they did not understand just how much anxiety is effecting you. It could be worth going back and stressing how you feel.

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for your concern it has really comforted me. I don’t really feel that anxious though😩 and thankfully I’ve already taken steps towards going into therapy and have an appointment early next month

[Hidden in reply to Meyer_Gdmnx]

It is wonderful you have an appointment next month. That took a lot of courage. I hope today is a better day.

[DottieLucy]

Meyer_Gdmnx, after reading your correspondence with Hidden, I have to agree that between the cold, anxiety and unemployment, you have reason to feel like not much is going right, currently. With no knowledge of why you are unemployed, my first instinct is to tell you to get a job - even if its not in your field of expertise or doesn't pay very well, doing something is better than doing nothing and letting days just slip by. I can attest to that simply because I felt like poo when I retired but as soon as I took a job I felt useful, even though the job itself is no big deal. If there isn't anything available, find some place that you can volunteer some time - the local pet shelter, homeless shelter, thrift store, etc. Between being needed and getting rid of the cold, I bet the rest just disappears on its own. I will be praying for you!