Struggling with suicidal thoughts

[Saoirse3]

Hi I'm struggling with suicidal thoughts. I just joined because it's hard for me to be around people. Most people make me feel worse. I'm struggling because I don't think life is worth all of this effort. I don't know how to fight for something that feels like a curse. I've been having mysterious health problems that are getting worse but trying to get diagnosed is just as expensive as treatment which then adds to my anxiety and suicidal thoughts. I just don't know what to do.

[Joeyman]

Hello friend, welcome to this community. I am sorry for the suffering that you are going through. Are you seeing a mental health expert? Are you taking any medications? The feelings that you are going through seem to show that you are suffering from depression. Let me tell firstly that it's not your fault. When we are depressed, the last thing we feel like doing is being around others. I used to feel the same way. Please talk to someone you are close to about what you are going through and please ask them to accompany you when you go to see a doctor. My mental health improved dramatically once I saw a psychiatrist. In the meantime please try to watch comedy films and tv shows even if you have to force yourself to. Try to get outdoors, breathe in the fresh air, get some sunshine, watch the birds. If you have pets, please talk to them about your suffering. Are you a spiritual person? During my bad times spirituality has given me hope and purpose. Things will get better. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

[Saoirse3 in reply to Joeyman]

Thank you. I'm really struggling to find an affordable therapist. I'm trying to but I feel very discouraged. I think I will talk to my cats tho. I tell them everything else.

[Hidden]

Go somewhere today and get medication for anxiety. The emergency room at the nearest hospital can help you. Please get help and you will make it through this dark time.

[Saoirse3 in reply to Hidden]

I am thinking maybe I need to as well

[b1b1b1]

I agree with NickMo. Go to the ER. I think they will be able to give you some names of psychiatrists you can see. They should also be able to give you something for anxiety, and possibly discuss your other medical issues with you. x

[crowningglory19]

I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling this down. I pray you find a way to live in peace and joy. It's good you joined here, it is a safe place to vent and voice concerns and fears. I would suggest maybe a great quality multi vitamin with extra vitamin Bs and also extra magnesium. Bs heal nerves and improve focus and good energy. Magnesium will calm your mind body and spirit. It doesn't cure everything, but makes it easier to deal with it all better, giving your body what it needs. If you can't afford to go to a dr or get the prescriptions, at least this will help your body heal to some degree. Also, do things that you love, find a way. There are so many free classes online for whatever you want to do and just accept you will suck at it at first, that's ok, everyone does, but practice does make better. Take art classes, writing classes, music,...whatever you want to learn, what is your passion. Take time to do things you love and you will enjoy life better. <3 Also, volunteerin is great to help you as you help others.