Tonight .. I feel broken. I feel like giving up. I feel panicked not to let these dark thoughts and feelings get the best of me. I cant stop crying profusely, struggling whether i should call the suicide hotline. I cant help but feel any sense of worthiness. I feel selfish that people even care about me at all, and that I cant reciprocate the same level of concern at this time being. I'm trying so hard not to be a disappointment. I am struggling Very much to keep the dark part of me from consuming my identity.