Coping with suicidal thoughts

[JSM123]

Tonight .. I feel broken. I feel like giving up. I feel panicked not to let these dark thoughts and feelings get the best of me. I cant stop crying profusely, struggling whether i should call the suicide hotline. I cant help but feel any sense of worthiness. I feel selfish that people even care about me at all, and that I cant reciprocate the same level of concern at this time being. I'm trying so hard not to be a disappointment. I am struggling Very much to keep the dark part of me from consuming my identity.

[Vonnah]

Hello there i am new to this community. Its sad that nobody has replied yet to your cry for help. Listen, you are a beautiful person inside and out. You have so much to give to this world. You can change peoples lifes and make a difference. Please i recommend you to call the suicide hotline. People will help you more than anyone else can. They are professionals who care very deeply about you and others feeling the same exact way your feeling. Please NEVER GIVE UP. I know how hard it is to feel completely alone and like no one sees that you are standing right in front of them. Keeping fighting against those horrible thoughts. They will NOT get the best of you. You are strong, beautiful, intelligent, and capable of more than you could ever possibly dream of. I'm supporting you 100%. Please call the hotline as soon as possible. I'll be praying for you I'm sending love your way, have a good day

[JSM123 in reply to Vonnah]

Thank you vonnah, your words have been very encouraging, I'm struggling a lot lately, I usually can speak to my mother, but i could bring self to explain the severity of my partial breakdown. Its sucks to suffer in silence. I have lots of self doubt in myself and it's really hurting recently with all that is going on in my life at the moment. It takes so much energy out of me. I have had terrible days at work, and moments in the last couple of days. I can't even confess my troubles in my SO as he recently is experiencing a family loss and the lasf thing i'd want to do is burden anyone with my troubles.

[Vonnah in reply to JSM123]

Try speaking to a counselor or doctor. Maybe that will help. Or call the hotline. Anytime you need to chat I'm here. I'll be praying for you. Get well soon your story isn't over yet

[JSM123 in reply to Vonnah]

Thank you for your encouragement, i am so greatlful for the kind words you have given me. I am still struggling with depressing thoughts, but i'm trying to take one day at a time, one hour at a time.

[Vonnah in reply to JSM123]

Your welcome. If you ever want to private message me thats fine. Have a nice day.