I'm strong, I'm resilient and I've always coped with whatever life has thrown me. I've reinvented myself many times, trained and retrained. I've been a veterinary nurse, a chef, a prison officer, run my own bar/restaurant and most recently been a qualified carer. I'm done in. I'm exhausted. Oh, and raised two sons too.
I don't want to feel like this is the end, like I'm going to spend the rest of my life as I am. Alone, no hope or future.
Oh wow, that's a lot. I'm a 50 year old woman and sometimes I feel the same. I don't have children . Pace yourself. You can only do so much.
Most of us feel this way one time or another. I am having life issues myself. There are people on this site who care for you. We are here
Jackie, look at all the great things you’ve accomplished in your life. It’s ok (though it’s sucks) to feel the way you do right now, but it’s just you gathering strength and getting recharged. Go with it. THAT’S who you are.
You have achieved so much, you can push one more time, I'm sure. Have you seen your doctor?
We do tire more easily as we get older, and Covid has done us no favours on the fitness front! Many folk have found themselves getting depressed and unfit during these last months.
Cheers, Midori
Take some time to rest. I know how hard that is for people who are very driven and goal oriented. It is vital for our wellbeing though. I often felt guilty when I tried to relax and it led to feelings if anxiety, depression and at times hopelessness. I hope you find something that brings you comfort.
I see in your last post that you’re experiencing PTSD due to a car accident and the related events. Have you considered EMDR?
My heart goes out to you. I am strong and resilient, too, and it was very unnerving four years ago when I started falling apart! You are not stuck like this. You have to power to heal yourself with some help from some kind humans.
I’m going to PM you. ❤️
You have done a lot of wonderful things and also right now you are feeling yuck! Yuck does not erase who you were or who you are and it doesn’t have to remain this way. Perhaps you might try to find some help, a therapist or someone who can help you clarify what’s going on so you can move forward. At least know you are not alone!
It not me.
This is me
Nobody is there for me.
Tell me what is wrong with me!
What has become of me? 
