i want to know what to do cause i feel like its hard to tell someone my feelings and write about it or write what they said! please help me

[mydog56]

when i want to tell someone my feelings or more! my voice breaks slowly , and i cry, so i try to tell them and then they tell me what to do and i try to write it in a piece of paper, but my feelings are too hard to say cause no one in my life knows how rough my life is at as a teenager , some boys in itlay, wants me to date them, i am worried i am afraid so i hide, but it is hard cause the boy sees me hiding, its hard cause the feeling comes in when i write something the therapy says or something like that, so i need your help, to tell me how can i release these feelings and how can i write them in paper without feeling them, or write them in a paper without thinking about what is happening, and how can i write what they tell me cause when i talk to someone like my parent or someone in my school and stuff i try to talk but then it is hard where i do not know what to do i feel the same hard feelings that a 16 year old gets when getting taller, it is hard cause my grandpa passed away, someone i used to know last year and this year is bullying me, even though i tell them to stop they will not so its hard! so please tell me! it is really hard for me all of this really too much cause i worry, stress, have anxiety, i get depressed very often, and so on,

[mydog56]

yes did both, did not work! my problems is worst! \yes im a teenager'

but lol if i was regular i would not be feeling all of this trouble

[mydog56]

no ,

[mydog56]

i think the same as you i mean it was too horrible

[mydog56]

i know the bullying has been going on and on with the drama last year and i was not in his bus and i was in his girlfriends bus , whatsoever i think this should stop to and let someone help me too, i have lots going on my mind, that is why i need a therapist, anyways i think that last year was horrible at school and this year is bigger drama and bad bad bad bullying near me cause he is doing it to me, i did many things for myself as well, but then it did not go well, cause my teacher agrees with him and not me, he thinks i misunderstood , but i think i did not, that bully person did it to me last year too, and he is trying to get me in trouble you know what i mean and he told the teacher that i posted him and his friends on social media , and i said no that is not right i disagree, with some of the things he said, cause i hate when he shows the teacher videos of not me! you know, maybe it is someone else....

but he is in my bus now and it is too hard cause he is pushing me in the bus and the bus driver never talked to him never see him and it but only i could see it and could tell all of the teachers, i feel like there is too many dangers around me.

[mydog56]

yes my concerns are very seriouscause i am really serious

this has been going on for a long time and i have depression and anxiety and people bosses me around i am like why? you know ... for me it matters that someone in my school helps me cause this is all bad! you know,,,

[mydog56]

are you a therapist?

[mydog56]

oh ok

[Fruitsofspirit]

U don't need to feel shy here. I feel safe talking here. Its been great for me. A little over a month ago they put me on hospice comfort care. So I'm still trying to get use to it. And I've been reading up on depression anxiety PTSD, med's, COPD. Trying to understand plus get my family and home feeling alive. Everything seems dead around here. I want love, Laughter, Joy,, peace, water bolloms hehe. Injoyed the rest of my life

[mydog56 in reply to Fruitsofspirit]

same

[Rafiki11]

In my opinion, when you can’t talk without crying it means you have not yet healed from the trauma. You need to get your thoughts and feelings out and talk to someone about them.

Emotional healing is a social process. You can’t do this alone. You need to find someone you trust (like a therapist) to express this to and receive empathy.

Unfortunately, you can’t avoid feeling pain or prevent painful thoughts. If you try to avoid them, they just burrow deeper into your brain and cause harm to you.

I have personal experience with this. I pushed down my negative feelings and they erupted on me 9 years later and caused a big mess. 4 years later I’m just now finishing cleaning up the mess of feeling what I should have felt 9 years ago.

[mydog56 in reply to Rafiki11]

oh pm me about it then, i feel interested in knowing

[Hidden]

With all that has gone on with you I also believe a counselor will help. You need a good set of friends. They're out there but sometimes we have to make the effort to find them. Hope you get the help.you need.🌻

[mydog56 in reply to Hidden]

i do have many of friends, but some are new to my school, and i still have trouble feelings, cause of the bullying and stuff, although i am a leader in the school and stuff, but i did try talking to them although that did not work, some of the friends i have , last year and this last last year just left me cause the group he has and stuff, he just bullies me too much, and so does his friends on me and still telling his friends about me and following me to classes although sometimes i just feel not great talking, since i lost my voice today and i still have a sore thoat, it seems to me that , the stuff that has happened last year and still happening, has not gone away yet , i was wondering if there is any type of notes i could take on my notebook so that i can keep it personal , and not show my friends, and family ,

[Hidden in reply to mydog56]

Are you talking about a small laptop? Or just paper? If it's paper somebody could find it and read it. If it's a iPad/laptop at least you can lock it so No one sees it.

[mydog56 in reply to Hidden]

no! i mean a secret notebook so you can write in it lock it and put it under somewhere so that nobody will find it

[Hidden in reply to mydog56]

By all means buy a notebook and keep a journal in it

[Nanii]

Hi, super sad to read what your going through. This might help you in writing: poems! You can get to the deeper side of your feelings with less complicated sentence constructions. Especially seeing you want to do this for yourself, nobody has to understand your poems except you yourself. I write poems myself now and then. It can really help me release feelings and clear or structure my thoughts.

Poems can be anything, there are no rules, which gives immense opportunity to express difficult feelings.

They can rhyme, but don't have to. They can sound like a song, but don't have to. They can be complete sentences, but also just individual words.

You could start of small, if you have never written poems before. You will notice if you continue, that your way of expressing will develope.

Sometimes on this site I see people writing poems too. I hope this is something which can help you too.