I doubt it will help me , but i want to write my thoughts

[Kevin160]

I finished with my main fear , but i just feel dissapointed , and now im panicking about how since im this weak mentally my future will be horrible and filled with stress anxiety and health problems , im thinking of studying abroad , and the thought of that scares me because i know that i suffer from anxiety and it will be hard to adapt and overcome my fears, im not worried about it but i just feel that im not ready and im scared to push myself, because im usually a confident person and im good with people , well kind off

My heart has been constantly sinking for hours and im in fear , in a spiral of not wanting to die from anxiety but wanting to let it out and be fine..i want therapy badly

[Missinglobe89]

Don't Panic! Studying abroad sounds exciting and like a big change which can be disorienting. Think of positives and all the new things you can explore and try. Its ok to be overwhelmed but let that feeling pass and you'll start getting excited again.

[Kevin160 in reply to Missinglobe89]

Yes i try to see the positive side but when you have anxiety its easy to focus on the difficulty i will face at first, the fear, the loneliness ..and i also fear what my family will go through without me , i always tried my best to keep peace in my family because of all the constant fights and im worried what will happen if i go i know its not my responsibility but it feels like it , especially my mom because she suffered the most from my sisters and my dad , im just lost because i dont want to stay here but im worried if i went there it wont be any better

[CatIsMyCopilot]

I have these feelings a lot too

Lately so much of my anxiety leads to eventually thinking "How am I going to get through life as such a weak person?" For me, I have been thinking about how I could ever raise kids, as someone close to me recently had a baby.

What I try to tell myself is that, from experience, my anxious self has actually gotten through a lot. Maybe not at 100% of my potential. Maybe not at my best. But I usually trudge through OK. While trudging through isn't the nicest idea of the future, for me it's often good enough. It's better than the catastrophes I imagine. And the truth of course is that we won't always have to trudge through. We'll have 100% days too!

[Kevin160 in reply to CatIsMyCopilot]

I agree and ironically thats what i tell myself , that atleast i survive ..but i mean as you said its not the nicest way to think about the future and living

, i have always suffered from anxiety but recently it really worsened and as i grew up i started to think how it will affect me , because you never really think of the future as a kid and your health and stuff like that , but certain things cause me to panic , and constantly i find myself midly worrying about silly things that dont even concern me or affect me directly , im oversensitive to many things and i wish i wasnt

[CatIsMyCopilot in reply to Kevin160]

Just know that you *can* improve your ability to handle anxiety. I believe I've made some small progress, and you probably can too. It's very hard to do so without facing your fears though. They call it "exposure" to your fears. However, using the right methods is always important, so therapy can help guide you, or self-help materials.

I hope both of us can make even more progress

[Kat63]

One day at a time.

[onthetrail]

I've wrestled with anxiety for years and went through panic attacks when I was younger that kept me from working. It's awful, I know. But doctors tell us we aren't going to die from anxiety (though it feels that way). The painful feelings are just "fight or flight" chemicals racing around our body. You can learn to accept this and let it wash over you and run out of energy to hurt.

I'm reading the book "Dare: The New Way to End Anxiety and Stop Panic Attacks Fast" right now which is an excellent simple system for doing that.

Studying abroad is an admiral goal. If it's too big a step at first, maybe you can find a smaller step that leads you in that direction. To overcome anxiety it's important to keep challenging ourselves, without overwhelming ouselves.

[TruckersWife4life]

Hello Keven160, Writing helps me allot and the unknown scares me also. When I write it lets me release my fears and allows me to have a clear mind. When I write I'm pretty much the only one that understands it. Hope this helps.