Not doing enough

[Chase888]

I am scared every day. My medication helps but I take it at night.

Before lockdown I had a voluntary job which I loved but the place isn't there now.

2 days a week I helped my elderly friend and he died in 2020.

I offered to cook Christmas dinner for his best friend and another person but had to cancel because I had an anxiety attack.

Wish I could get back to the way I was.

I need specialist dental treatment and they needed a letter to agree to a payment plan. My new doctor printed my recent notes and to my horror there was a big fat lie on them.

I made phone calls and she phoned to apologize. I didn't believe her and I was right. She cut my medication and I had to deal with it by making more calls to people who could help.

She has written me a decent letter now and reinstated my medication but it made me ill.

I don't know 💯 but I think she was worried about her job.

My notes say my anxiety is triggered by bad news and abuse.

I want to go out every day but it's hard to travel on bus or walk in the park.

[Byoung]

I can empathize with you. My anxiety is off the charts in the morning. Even Klonopin doesn't touch it. For some reason, it seems to ease up in the late afternoon and evening. I wake up every morning in a terror of the coming day. At the end of the day,I look back and none of the things that I was afraid of happened. I am being treated by a great counselor and a psychiatrist, but neither medication or counseling is helping. I am exhausted today and was barely able to make it into work. I'm beginning to believe that this will never get better.

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Chase it is important you try and relax before bedtime, consider tasks and hobbies you enjoy that will divert all that stress and worry of the day. I generally have time to look at books of my past travels from twenty years ago, looking at the pictures bring back those wonderful times and that helps me relax. I do not read anymore as my memory does not help me concentrate or remember things, pictures are worth a thousand words and I find that beneficial.

Remember no-one deserves abusive behaviour you need to be able to walk away, so people need to know your limits and hopefully they will understand you and respect your needs. Remember its important you respect yourself and move on if the need arises. You deserve your happyness and love yourself