Gonna give it a second go

[gilded_masquerade]

I’ve mentioned on here before that I was on Citalopram for my panic attacks and that I was alluding to getting back on ADHD medication since I haven’t ever really been on it (I was in the 3rd/4th grade but I hated swallowing pills so I’d hide them 😅).

I am now considering getting back on both because I’m realizing that I do need the assistance but also because it’s starting to somewhat affect those around me.

This time last year I was out and about (taking precautions of course with Covid going on) and this year I haven’t left at all really except for the occasionally walks. It’s not that big of a deal but I can see that my boyfriend is bummed out because he’s like to go out and do stuff together like we did last summer.

We talked about it a bit last night and I told him it’s weird transitioning to knowing and coming to the realization I need that extra help from a military family who don’t really think of things that way (more of my dad than my mum and to be clear; he doesn’t believe this in a rude way at all!).

He also told me that his job has a prescription benefit so he wouldn’t mind getting my meds for me.

The only reason why I’ve ever been against taking pills is because I tend to start depending on things like this. When I was smoking weed (recreationally) I was using it to escape reality and ended up using it nearly every hour of the day, I became dependent. I tend to do this a lot with various things so my point being, I don’t want to become dependent on medication. I don’t mean for that to sound offensive or rude or anything of that nature.

I am seriously considering going back on medication as I think it would be a huge help. I miss living and enjoying my life and with the ADHD meds (I’m hoping for Strattera, I don’t want to be on any stimulant ADHD meds) maybe my mind will relax and calm down a bit.

I don’t know how soon I’ll be able to do this but I’m hoping to within the next few months.

Here’s to hoping 🤞🏻

Make sure you take your meds, drink some water (stay hydrated!), make sure you get something to eat, make that appointment, do that thing you’ve been putting off, practice self care, get some fresh air, be gentle with yourself.

Take care 🖤

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If you don’t want to depend on medication then maybe you can learn about the brain. By learning about your condition and how the brain works, you may find a solution to your interest. For instance, the part of the Brain that causes adhd. You can look at how to focus and control the mind to behave.

[Randomlonely in reply to Hidden]

How do you do that?

[happyjackandjoan]

Diazepam

[gilded_masquerade in reply to happyjackandjoan]

This is an old post and I’m not going to be going on any meds 😌

Thank you for commenting, I hope you’re doing well.

Take care 🖤