Unjustified melancholy

[florapeace]

Hi everyone!

I'm really just using this as an extension of my journal at this point.

Yesterday, when I was sitting on my porch (as I like to do almost every night before bed), I realized that things are going really really well for me right now. I'm graduating with a BS in Biomedical Science in a couple weeks, I have a job lined up, I'm moving out of my apartment and will finally be able to live alone-I really can't complain. For some reason, though, I am not happy at all. Right now I think I feel worse than I've felt in all of my years of college, and I can't begin to understand why. I feel ungrateful, and my family thinks the same. I just have that pit in my stomach everyday, and it's like I'm dragging myself around everywhere. I'm hoping that maybe I am just burnt out and that things will get better once I'm out of school.... but we'll see.

[hypercat54]

It's the anti-climax from reaching your dreams that's all and nothing to worry about. It's similar when a woman has a baby and can lead to depression. After all the years of planning and pushing yourself to achieve you have reached a hiatus. Suddenly you feel flat coz it's come to an end.

All change is scary even good change and you will be going through a lot soon. Leaving home, starting a new job, a new place to live. All very stressful things especially in a short space of time and it's natural to feel good but also apprehensive as you will be entering a new stage in your life and the relative unknown.

Give yourself time to get your head round it all and you will be fine. Use the time you have now to do some nice things for yourself, meet friends, spend time with your family etc.

You will soon get used to your new life and settle in but give yourself some leeway at the moment. That's my advice.

Oh and many congratulations on passing your exams and getting a good job straightaway. You done good girl.

[Gentlespirit]

Its not easy whether its burnout or a very deep fatigue. Your family may not realize that your probably being quiet to not worry them or your still trying to figure out what's going on.