I am a Swiss Army Knife of issues. I don't want to talk about them, but I want to ask if anyone else feels like they aren't deserving of the help they need because they don't feel like they should feel the way they do...
I feel like my upbringing doesn't justify the way I feel. I know the question itself shouldn't matter, because the "why" doesn't matter. I know feelings don't stop just because you can't validate them, but I can't make myself believe that it is okay to feel like this.
i totally am on the same page, whenever im feeling down all i want is someone to ask me how i’m doing but once someone does i shrug it off like im fine and they shouldnt worry. im trying to work on telling others how i feel when im feeling it because im wayyy too good at repressing emotions
I struggled with the same thoughts. I have a loving wife, a good job, 3 kids. I waited a long time thinking there is no way I should feel the way I do. But I decided in order to be the best husband, father and teacher, I need to take care of myself first. I’m glad I took the first step and I think you would be too!
Dude... we all live like 80 years tops. And then it's over. And time flies pretty damn fast.. remember 2000? That was 20 years ago. woop. You better stop asking so many questions and wasting away time, but grab what you can. Incl. help and get on with your life. Better life preferably.
I don't believe we really live any amount of time at all. It's all instant. You exist in the past, and in the future, but you aren't ever anything but now. And now is the only time that means anything.
yeah, ok, that's how you perceive and process time.
Yet your bodies, much like any mountain erode. And in my opinion life is something extraordinary. Call it anomaly in space. We are like a virus of sorts. Destined to conquer the stars and eventually time itself.
However life depends on us living our lives fruitfully - developing things, skills, teaching and building. You can never know what your actions will mean for future. For example Julius Caesar probably did not think people will remember him 2060 years later.
While living "in the moment" is perhaps proper approach to thoughts, we still must embrace the idea that we as separate bodies are finite and our duty is to advance no matter what. Preferrably, if we are progressing good enough, we can attain biological immortality even.
Life begets life. It shies away from anything else because the only state of existence life accepts is life. I don't feel like I have free will when I have to blindly follow that. I'd rather decide for myself what life is and means, and how tight its grip on me is. Life, to me, is self-motivating. I agree with your analogy to viruses, because all life wants to create, defend, and preserve itself.
I like to imagine what life without life would be. What death could be. My mind doesn't accept nothing. My mind hasn't ever known true "nothing". In a sense, it never will. Maybe that's our immortality; we can only experience life.
Get some help and start taking care of yourself. You are totally worth it!!! You deserve to be able to enjoy life and find happiness. Don’t waste time, because the longer you wait, it may get harder to seek help. Start living life! 😊
A sobering life lesson
Is it ok to have no friends? 
I laid in bed all day today, feeling ashamed
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