I had an ex, who used to remind me to work out all the time.at first, I thought he cares for my health and after a couple of days, he asked me to send my pictures(not naked ones but when I workout lol). I thought okay let's get some good pics and send him. I am a sucker for compliments, even though I pretend like I don't deserve it when someone calls me pretty or beautiful, I deep inside know how much I love me but if do express people I love me openly, they always think I am arrogant or something. back to the story, soo I sent him my photos, he replied " why soo cute ??" I was literally about to turn red from that text itself but then it didn't last long until I saw a message "but u look kind of fat? are u working out" I was devasted. I mean why does my body matter soo much, if he loves me, he should love me for me right? I felt super conscious of my body because of him. even though I am super healthy with a 55kgs weight he still wants me to be skinny. he told me "I will look hotter it seems, if I lose more weight," I thought to myself " that's unhealthy, I am good and healthy now. anyways that toxic exm ade me open my eyes seriously.I hope all good for him because of him I learned a lot. I learned to love myself. now i openly tell people I am comfortable with the way I am. and it doesn't come from a place of superiority it comes from me thinking of myself as a perfect bundle of love and beautiful creation of god .is it wrong, absolutely not.
Arrogance vs self-love.: I had an ex... - Anxiety and Depre...
Arrogance vs self-love.
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Oh that's not love so no wonder he is an ex! He sounds like one of those men who have their own ideas what a woman should look like and try and impose it on you. It's all very shallow as he wants other men to be jealous of the 'ornament' he has on his arm. It's an ego thing.
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