Rejecting love

I am rejecting the true love and I hate myself. I have no doubts that he really loves me, but I hate myself so much that I am rejecting his love.. one time I say I love him so much, but the next day I say we should break up...

I feel I'm the worst so how can he love me...

I'm afraid I can lose the love of my life!

[Sprinkle1]

So why are you doing this to yourself? Don't you and he deserve better. See if you can get a therapist, probably have to be on line, phone or tele port, you need to sort yourself out.....Sending love n hugs...Sprinkle 1.....

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Thank you Sprinkle1.. I love him so much and i think he does deserve better. I am no better for him.

I can't visit my therapist now, due to the pandemic isolation:((

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Wow, as a 66 year old who's partner just abandoned her due to her illness, your problems sound like something you might be able to solve with some counseling help. All of them are doing video consultations now. Go do it.

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Dear PacificCLL, I'm so sorry to hear about this.. I hope you also get some help an support. I wish you the best ❤

I'll see what I can do about the counselling... thank you!

[justkev]

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[justkev]

Hi there, just my two pence worth - how about you both go to the doctors and say how it is ?

Speaking for myself, I had to go on two different meds and after a year I finally

don't feel the dark cloud is following me permenantly any more.

Good luck

Kevin

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Hi Kev, thank you for your message.

The truth is he doesn't even know I'm in therapy. It's been just a few months since we're together so I dont want to tell him...

My therapist didn't really suggest me taking medication. She said it's not necessary since my major problem is low-self esteem... Although I can feel it's slowly killing me inside

[justkev]

Hi onemore. i suffered with most of what you described for a very long time and was against taking meds. Felt i was slipping in to a really dark place so i gave in to meds, feeling a lot less stuck and almost smiling. Good luck on your journey, take care

Kev

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I'll give it a second thought...

Thank you, and I wish you will start smiling very soon!! 😊😊