A split second

[gottalovelife247]

Happy one second and the next you're in a low low. The smallest things can crush me. This morning was rough but my day got better. Really good actually. Now I'm back where I don't want to be. Now I'm not sure how to get back where I was. Because once this hits I feel like I'm down for the count. I want so badly to be better and genuinely happy for longer amounts of time. No matter how much I want that I can't seem to make it happen. Instead I do things I regret when I start feeling better again, I get that confused with thinking the things I do is what makes me feel better.

Skin and Bones by Lund

[Hidden]

Hi, What things did you do that made you feel regretting after if you feel like telling?

[gottalovelife247 in reply to Hidden]

I'm not really used to talking about it with anyone, it's something I've always hid. I'll just say I know it isn't a healthy way to deal with things but after I've done it I feel better. It helps me dissociate from emotional pain and replaces it with physical pain, something I can easily fix.

[Hidden in reply to gottalovelife247]

I understand you want to keep it private. However, I can see you are aware that it’s not healthy way to cope with based on your post that you regretted. The mind is very cunning that one thing you can do is not listening to it. I find meditation and yoga help me tremendously. I hope you can be gentle on yourself and best wishes. 🙏

[gottalovelife247 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you

[Kainan]

Hi. I can relate to what your saying. It's tough because it's like you're trying to fix one issue while creating another. It may temporarily bring reprieve, but over the long term it becomes automatic. I have the same issue and I wish I had some good advice, but the only thing I can think of is to channel that energy into something else, so that connection can slowly start to fade away. I hope that helps👍

[gottalovelife247 in reply to Kainan]

Thank you

[Gentlespirit]

I know its hard confusing discouraging and exhausting. Keep hanging in there and do what you can. Try not to be too harsh on yourself. Also just keep asking yourself questions and be patient with yourself if you need to sleep or zone out or whatever. Try to have an open mind and keep trying.

[gottalovelife247 in reply to Gentlespirit]

Thank you. So much.

[Gentlespirit]

I Believe in you Believe in yourself. You can accomplish a lot a little at a time.