Anxiety and Arachnophobia

[Starfish_]

Okay this might be dumb but my anxiety is through the roof. This is about spiders.

I was lying in bed, trying to sleep but I was pretty awake whatever I feel something on my arm and I brush it off but I could see it was kinda big and was 90% sure it was a bug. So I jump out of bed and turn on my lights and in my bed running around is a spider. A big one. I killed it and flushed it down the toilet but I can't go back into my bed. I was shaking and crying and all my roommates are asleep and I cant get over that it was on me and in my bed and I just--

Less than a month ago I was writing on my laptop at night in the dark and right next to my head on the wall was a spider. I managed to kill that one too but I dont know why this had happened twice in such a short time I've lived in this apartment since June and never saw a spider in my room once until then. I know this is stupid but it feels like something like that is going to happen again. Like first it was small and on my wall then this time it was bigger and on me, and I know that means nothing but in my head its like, whats next?

Anyway I can't sleep and I'm sitting downstairs with the lights on and I keep feeling the crawling on my skin. I took my anxiety meds so hopefully they'll kick on soon but I'm also afraid I'm going to have nightmares bc I already do about insects sometimes and asgsjs I don't know I had to get it out I guess. I'm just very stressed and still super anxious and don't know what to do I don't know how I can sleep in there again..

[hypercat54]

Oh how I emphasise with you as I have an irrational fear of spiders too. I too would freak out if one was on me and in my bed and I would have to strip it and search for any more. My heart thumps too like a mad thing when I see one and I shake for ages afterwards. I kill them as well.

I don't know if you can get it where you are but there is a spray which vets sell to get rid of fleas in your home called Indent. This actually kills spiders and if you spray it around windowsills and doors, basically anywhere they come in you should be spider free.

I used to live in a garden flat and saw loads especially September/October time so I did this one year and didn't see one. My neighbour who lived upstairs moaned about all the spiders she had seen so obviously they were bypassing my flat and going to hers!

It does cost around £20 but well worth it.