Here again why not?

[Amelua]

I'm tossed 2 the deepest part of the SEA. With nobody 2 live with, except those using ME. I have no way to enjoy LIFE, 4 I've been forced 2 abandon my WIFE. I'm being forced 2 do 4 ANOTHER, but my wellbeing is nobodies BOTHER. My depression is eating me from WITHIN, my broken heart doesn't even allow me 2 GRIN. Some say my heart knows the ANSWER, yet they don't know my emotions R buried in CANCER. That's due to 1 big FACT, when my emotions get stirred my brain fires seizures right BACK. When my seizures come and STRIKE, my depression brings nothing but tears 2 my EYES. So now what can anyone SAY, 2 someone who can't enjoy life in any WAY. 4 being forced to do the UNWANTED, & if he doesn't do it, by the law he will be HUNTED. Why wouldn't death 4 him be BEST, if that's the only place illnesses, heartaches, burdens, & loneliness will be put 2 REST?

[Hidden]

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[hypercat54]

Well no one can literally force you or anyone to do anything. You can be manipulated, guilted, shamed etc. but unless it is at the point of a gun - forced no.

It would be helpful to think of it in the terms I have mentioned instead as it might help you to resolve your issues. Until you do I'm afraid your depression will remain.

You need to be free to lead the life you want if you ever seek fulfillment or happiness. Are you seeing a therapist? That could help you get to the bottom of your emotions and enable you to move on.

[Amelua in reply to hypercat54]

Thanks for responding. However me feeling forced comes from court orders that I can't live with my wife 'cause she's in another country and I can't leave this one, DHS has me tied with a child, who has Dr. APPTS 5 × weekly and I have nobody else to help me or take him, the child is not even mine but the child trusts nobody but me and that keeps GAL workers on my case to keep caring for the child. The love & bond for 1 has me tied, and I can't break loose 'cause I can't take the guilt it'll bring me the rest of my life. Thanks again.

[hypercat54 in reply to Amelua]

Oh dear sorry to hear that. Well if you can't leave for the time being the only thing you can do is accept it I'm afraid. You can also make sure you have other things you enjoy doing so you have at least some outlets.

When the child is 18 any legal ramifications will be finished so it's not for ever.

[Hidden]

Sorry for how u are feeling right now. Your posts seems hopeless but where there is life, there is hope. I was going to ask you for the details of ur problems but u have responded to someone why you are feeling like this. Indeed, there seem to be no solution. In the meantime while u can't be with ur wife, speak to her online as much as possible. Atleast u have bonded with the child. Many times when we think we are the only ones with problems, they seem glorified until we realize others are sharing the same problems. You are not alone, let us share problems together.