Support Systems & Depression

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

Hi guys first of all I hope everyone had a great Christmas despite the circumstances and I wish and hope you all have a better 2021. I wanted to get your guys options on something that I’ve touched on previously and then some advice on how to break negative patterns that are associated with depression. Firstly the support system mine obviously took a big hit this year with my dad passing away in March (not Covid related) prior to this happening he was the core of my support system at times ye didn’t understand and hit frustrated but he was always positive and told me how strong I was and always listened and tried to empathise and comfort me. My brother however he not cut from the sane cloth he often complains about having to hear about my latest physical ailment which I understand can be frustrating and irritating but this occurred every time there is rarely a comforting tone or attitude it’s always treated as a huge inconvenience to him and something that makes him angry. I understand thus could be because he is working and I’m not etc as well as his Freud and stress at the passing of our father and Yes on occasion he’s stayed up with me but very reluctantly and when I went to hospital after a bad panic in the summer he didn’t ask how I was when getting back in the car but complained about how late it was and if he was there thus wouldn’t of happened. He has also said he just wants me to get better and improve many times and I do think he wants this but doesn’t seem to think his attitude could be detrimental. This lead me to think about how I could be too reliant on him for support and that I need to focus on becoming my own support system and I was wondering his one would do that and also if I am being to tensing and or unfair on my brother. Now on to my question about depression, I’m in a pretty bad cycle that I’ve been stuck in for months now I go to sleep around 5 wake up at 1 and spend all day in my dressing gown unable to think at all my mind is blank all of the time and I just let the day drift by while wanting to cry but not having the energy or capacity to do so. I am eating and showering every day and when there is something to do such as decorating the house I will go look at carpets or tile samples etc but find it impossible to self motivate and create a positive routine I hear about creating husks but I don’t care enough to think of any

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

Hi thank you for your reply it is very much appreciated 5am -1pm and I do apologise my autocorrect is abysmal😂 I meant goals

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

Thank you very much for your reply it means a lot