Worried sick 😣😣😣

[bandicoot1987]

Hiya

So I suffer with really bad health anxiety and I'm due into hospital tomorrow afternoon (Friday) to have a mole removed from my neck.

I've never had local anesthetic in my life and I'm absolutely petrified, plus I have to go in on my own because of covid obviously and I've never done anything like this alone before.

My partner is always allowed to accompany me at the doctors because they know how frightened I am, but when I went to a local hospital the other week to have pictures taken and I explained to the receptionist how bad I was she got quite snappy with me which made me even more upset.

People just don't understand, maybe because it's not a visable illness they just don't believe me.

I'm getting so panicked and I feel physically sick. I don't know what to expect, I hate pain, I hate needles, I'm freaking out massively, I've taken all my meds and I'm still Flippin out here.

Had a covid test Tuesday on my doorstep and had a full blown panic attack after, I was awful it's so ridiculous - please someone tell me it's not as bad as my mind is telling me. It's fear of the unknown and I've never had a local.

TIA x x x

[Hidden]

Deep breaths. It will be okay. Our minds are extremely good at scaring us and therefore making the waiting unbearable. For me at least, things end up going a lot smoother than my mind tells me will happen. I know this doesn't help you much, though. Tell the anesthesiologist your concerns beforehand. I've only had local anesthesia once in my life. Although it was several years ago that I got my tonsils out, I do remember him being very good at making sure I was comfortable. He told me to count backwards from 5. The next thing I knew I was being wheeled out of the hospital with my mom at my side. I actually remember telling my mom to take me back because they weren't done yet (apparently they really knock you out).Will you have someone meet you afterwards to drive you home?

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Hidden]

Yes my partner will wait for me as I don't drive, thank you for your kind words, it's the thought of being awake during the procedure more than anything and I don't cope at all with pain or anything xx

[Hidden in reply to bandicoot1987]

You're welcome!Oh, did I get it mixed up? Local anaesthesia doesn't put you under? Sorry about that. Just goes to show how much I know about this stuff😆.

Nevertheless, they should make sure you are comfortable enough to undergo the procedure. Good luck; I'm sure you'll do great!🙂

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Hidden]

Yes I'd much rather be knocked out, I'm sure if I make them aware of how bad I get they'll do what they can to help me, I'm just so anxious about even being on my own. Wish they could put me to sleep, I wouldn't mind as I wouldn't be aware of anything.I'm sure it will be over before I know it, just need to be brave xxx

[Mary-intussuception in reply to bandicoot1987]

What's the reason that you're not having a General Anaesthetic so you'll be asleep? Is it because of Covid?

Have you asked for a General Anaesthetic?

Could you phone the hospital in the morning and ask about this?

I doubt you'd be under the GA for long and you would still be able to go home the same day.

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

It's just a mole removal from my neck so I guess they don't see the point, apparently it will only take an hour xx

[Mary-intussuception in reply to bandicoot1987]

Weren't you offered a General Anaesthetic?

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

No just told it would be a local xx

[Mary-intussuception in reply to bandicoot1987]

Have you considered phoning the hospital, first thing in the morning, and asking for a General Anaesthetic?

If that would mean a delay, how would you feel? Would you rather get it over with tomorrow? How long have you had the mole?

Whereabout on your neck is the mole?

What does your Mum think?

What does your partner think?

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

The mole was looked at 2 weeks ago and they got me in for tomorrow so pretty quickly, it's just beneath my ear, where my gland is, it's grown quite alot since January, my mum just wants me to have it out asap as she had cancer cut out a couple of months ago so I understand her concerns.

I just want it done, but I want to be as out if it as possible because I know I'm a nightmare for jumping when I feel something, I've hit people in the past, just seems like a reaction I can't control, I don't obviously mean it but it could be dangerous, as long as they know all this before. Xx

[Mary-intussuception in reply to bandicoot1987]

Seems that it has to be tomorrow.

When you feel up to it, please update us. Let's know how you are.

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

I will thank you that's really kind xx

[Mary-intussuception in reply to bandicoot1987]

Hope it's helped a little to talk it all through xx

[Mary-intussuception in reply to Hidden]

That would have been a General Anaesthetic you had.

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Yes general is good, local I've never had but have been told it can be painful so I'm freaking out xx

[Hidden in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Ahhh, thanks.

[Mary-intussuception]

You could try insisting that your partner is with you, but, even under 'normal' circumstances it would probably be just you for the procedure. Did no one mention possibly seeing your doctor beforehand and arranging some meds such as short term Diazepam on the day?

I think you will be ok.

Don't be afraid to speak up about your concerns and fears. They should reassure you and look after you.

You could make a complaint about Ms snappy if you wish. She was way out of line. Highly unprofessional. She had no right whatsoever to speak to you and upset you like that. You're better than she is.

Think of your favourite place and your favourite food as you're about to have your treatment. You can do this. ❤️

God Bless x

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

That's very sweet thank you xx

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

I have been taking my diazepam had 7 so far over 2 days xx

[Mary-intussuception in reply to bandicoot1987]

Is that a low dose?

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

2mg each tablet is all the doctor ever gives me xx

[Mary-intussuception in reply to bandicoot1987]

Could you phone your doctor tomorrow morning and ask if you should take extra diazepam about half to one hour before your treatment?

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

My mum already phoned to ask today and got told sorry but all telephone appointments are taken - so I can't even talk to my doctor. It's so silly, had nothing but problems since covid, unless you have that you're not important. Xx

[Secret4706]

Fellow HA sufferer here and I can imagine you are up a height with anxiety I'd be too. Will be thinking of you and hoping all goes well. Take care x

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Secret4706]

Thank you xx

[Hidden]

you will just be given an injection it won't hurt ,it will go numb and they will cut it out you won't feel it then you can go and have a lovely cup of coffee best of luck.

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Hidden]

I really do hope that's it xxx

[Hidden in reply to bandicoot1987]

I had some lumps removed a few years ago darling I got it done in the doctor surgery but you can't do that now I suppose with the virus .I was given an injection so I didn't feel what they were doing ,you will.be fine

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you xx I'm trying to be so strong, just so afraid of having a panic attack during the procedure or something, as long as I tell them how petrified I am I'm sure they will accommodate.I'm sure once it's done I'll wonder what all the fuss was about xx

[Hidden in reply to bandicoot1987]

How did it go .did you manage to get through it

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Hidden]

I had a panic attack but I've had it done and calmed down. Thank you xx

[Hidden in reply to bandicoot1987]

Oh bless ,but good for you darling, all over now,sleep well

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Hidden]

You are so sweet Thankyou so much xxx

[Mary-intussuception]

Hi

Just to say:

Thinking of You ❤️

xx

[Barbie72]

It's bad for those too that accompany you....my husband had surgery last Thursday and I was a mess because I could not even come into the hospital, just wait at the curb in my car when he was released. Hard to sleep alone and worry the night away. I know it's probably worse for you, the patient. But your surgery will be quick and recovery short. I worked in a cancer hospital and saw this same thing with patients, then were surprised how nice and compassionate everyone was. Just tell them you panic and they will help you get through it. My husband told the surgical team that he didn't want to through the operating room UNTIL they put him out and they did, no problem He said he didn't want to see or know anything until he woke up in his hospital room with the "thumbs up" sign from his surgeon. So it was very easy for him since everyone knew his desires. You might try that approach.....

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Barbie72]

Everyone was wonderful today. Helped me alot, made me feel alot easier after having a panic attack in the waiting room xx

[Barbie72 in reply to bandicoot1987]

So happy for you that they were great......yes, waiting rooms can be the worse - anticipatory anxiety!! You did it! Yea for you! Add that one to your list of "I did it!"

[bandicoot1987 in reply to Barbie72]

Thank you so much, so nice to have people like you xxxxx