I hate being a mother
I hate it every day, it's why I don't play with them it's why I'm.always late on any doc appointments or school activities because I hate that. I hate having to make sure all there shit is taken care of. I've been a mother for 10 years and I absolutely am overwhelmed with regrets every day of my life. I just screamed at them because my oldest knocked over one of my plants. It's not about the plant, that plant symbolizes children fuck up anything that you want to keep nice. How sad is it, that I would talk about my hatred of motherhood all day? I feel happy when I talk about how much I hate what I've done to my life. I'm 30 years old and I've had kids since I was 20. I didn't have the "fun" years. I had kids. I didn't get drunk.at some party , I didn't sleep in my car at the beach with my friends, I didn't get to find my "worth". Of course mature loving mother's would say "but dear, aren't children worth more than those silly adolescent regrets"?. Um nope there not. Not to me. It's not worth it to me to end my life to give them there's. And I mean that theoretically, I'm not suicidal. I get sick every morning knowing I've got to feed them breakfast, I cringe when I hear them running to me, I wince when I think about them needing clothes that they'll ruin, jeans that they'll rip, and food that they'll waste. Anyone else can say I'm being selfish and horrible. But that's the worst part, I don't care. I hate being a mother and that's just all there is to it.