Today I just feel very depressed and fed up. I'm tired of trying when it feels like I've tried everything already. I have a therapist currently and I started feeling a little better but of course it didn't last. I used to take Prozac which worked but then it stopped working and ever since I've been searching for a replacement. I struggle to see the point of it all honestly. I don't want to live. I wish I could just die peacefully but I can't, so as long as I wake up each day I just go through the motions. The only thing constant in my life is depression. It never goes away. It has robbed me of everything. I honestly just want to die. I don't see a way out of it anyway. When I was younger I told myself that I wouldn't let myself live past 30, and now I'm not that far off. I don't know what to do.
I've tried self help books, religion, spirituality, CBT, talking to a psychologist, meds and seeing a psychiatrist, what else could I possibly try? I've been dealing with this for so long that I've lost hope.