Song I listen to

[PoSt1MaNPaT1]

This is a song that I listen to every morning to try to keep myself alive it's from William Pitt and it's called City Lights. I try to concentrate on the part that says(YOU GOTTA TRY) it also talks about trusting,and says no time for memories I take that personally as i'm not going to hold on to the memories of my child abuse and narcissistic so called mother.please have a listen but you might not take from it what I do.Take care everyone have a nice day whatever your up to.

[Dolphin14]

m.youtube.com/watch?v=4OraQ...(Not working as expected?)

[Dolphin14]

I think I have the right one posted? I'm never sure if I do it right.

I can see your take away.

I absolutely agree with your words regarding holding on to the past. We can't be prisoner to that. Easier said than done

❤️🐬

[PoSt1MaNPaT1 in reply to Dolphin14]

Yes you have put the right one but it doesn't play the whole song.No it isn't easy trying to forget about your past it has taken me years to do it and a lot of hard work.I seen my narcissistic mother about 2 weeks ago when I was out,she was staring at me and I was staring at her I started to get horrible thoughts and flash back but I kept telling myself no,no,no stop thinking this way,I am over this so don't let her bother you and it worked I forgot about her and got on with what I had to do.I was staring at her because I thought your not going to intimidate me and make me feel awkward but if I see her again i'm going to walk on and not look at her as if she doesn't exist,she's not worth an inch of my energy.Take care

[Dolphin14 in reply to PoSt1MaNPaT1]

I found the longer original version. I can take that down if you like?

Your mother has no power over you You are not that little girl anymore. Good job getting through that

[PoSt1MaNPaT1 in reply to Dolphin14]

No I'm not bothered about the post been taken down,thanks for putting it up.😉

[Dolphin14 in reply to PoSt1MaNPaT1]

I was trying to be helpful. Lol

Now I'm hoping I didn't overstep.

Are you able to post your full version?

[PoSt1MaNPaT1 in reply to Dolphin14]

Please don't worry about the post honestly,you didn't overstep anything,I don't know how to put videos on I usually listen to it on my tele.How's your day anyway i'm just relaxing I was out yesterday so i'm in a bad way today with pain and weakness,I keep telling myself that I can't live like this but reading all the post is helping me a bit.I've got borderline personality disorder due to my past so people with this get a lot of suicidal thoughts,it's brain damage and hard to live with,I was offered group therapy but my anxiety is stopping me from doing it.

[Dolphin14 in reply to PoSt1MaNPaT1]

I'm in the USA so my day is just starting to move along. Morning exercise complete. We have some sun today so I will get out walking.

One of my sisters was borderline. She struggled a lot

[PoSt1MaNPaT1 in reply to Dolphin14]

Enjoy the sunshine and your walk.🤗

[Dolphin14 in reply to PoSt1MaNPaT1]

Thank you

I hope you feel better