Overthinking makes me feel bad about myself

[Steph2293]

Hello again

I don't know how to call this behavior so I think is overthinking.

Yesterday we have to make a presentation for the class. Saturday we delegated the question each one was going to answer, by Sunday I had my part done but any of my teammates were done anything. It's Monday and I'm just waiting for everyone to finish. We handed the presentation 10 minutes after the class started, I didn't say anything because maybe they had their own stuff to worry about that keeping them busy. I was waiting to start but there was no sound in the reunion (Google meet) I thought the professor didn't arrive yet. But I was wrong, for some reason, I ignore the sound wasn't able to function and I didn't know why. It was very strange, so I have to leave the reunion and sign in again, but my turn to speak at the presentation has passed. I couldn't believe it! I was so frustrated! The least I could was to answer the question the professor made because no one was saying anything. Then I read the WSP messages and there are some words I didn't like.

"Steph you could at least answer because you were slow"

"If someone has problems with their connection or other stuff, they have to say it beforehand"

I apologized and I have to clarify I was the only one who did it. But...

What does she mean for "slow"? I wasn't paying 100% attention to the class because the rest of you didn't finish on time on their own part! I mean, I have to send the presentation because the person in charge didn't do it! You had the whole weekend to finish but you wait until the last hour to finish?!

Though I felt angry...I felt very guilty because I couldn't speak at the presentation and then I felt It was my fault at the very end.

"What if they are mad at me?" "What if they exclude me?" "Maybe I have to apologize to each of them?"

Why do I have these thoughts? Is it really my fault?

[ReadingGuy]

If you were in my classroom. I would say to you thank you for coming. Here, I would say sometimes we have no control over somethings even our thoughts. Here just tell us what is on your mind. Its ok to be frustrated about the situation. Breath and clear your mind. Of course, in real life, I can't offer you a snack or a bottle of water but I can say I hope you know that your did all you could.