My family does NOT understand my constant symptoms and think they're an easy fix. They think I can just snap out of it, grow up, get over it, and move on with my life. I am told constantly that I am a disappointment and a failure, I'm called pathetic, lazy, and a "do nothing" in life. My parents are on the verge of divorce because of me -- and how much of a burden I am to the family with my illness.
I am also required to get a job ASAP if I don't want to be kicked out. I cannot hold a job, or barely go on interviews for the life of me.. I am simply not ready and will not be until I can learn to function/control these symptoms (constant dizziness).
I had an interview scheduled for today and I simply could not do it. I was too dizzy and fatigued.. not to mention I cannot work a full time position at this time in my life. I'm a college graduate and have a degree in Psychology.. Why is this happening to me? I look so normal on the outside, and pretended to feel normal so bad and I simply couldn't. I wanted to so badly, I want to feel inside the way I look on the outside.. NORMAL.
I wish I wasn't treated so poorly for something that isn't clearly visible to the people around me. Isn't family supposed to be there for you through thick and thin? Not mine I guess..