Hi, everyone. I am here to see if this can really make any difference for feeling better. I have husband in jail for a horrible crime. He ruined my and my kids lives. I am trying to divorce but don't have money for that in my budget. My father, whom I loved so much, committed suicide. My mom is from another planet. My brother is a drug addict, and no help to anyone at all. I'm raising 4 children alone and constantly broke. I feel constant anxiety for my children to be brought up the best way. I feel like I don't know what I'm doing as a parent. I'm scared to come home to my kids because I feel overwhelmed by everything I have to do at home. People tell me I'm doing a great job( except my mom). I really can't take any criticism well. I hate anyone who tells me my kid is not doing great because it made me feel like a failure. I really don't trust people, or scared to trust. I'm crying every day and feel exhausted. I have full time, good job I'm grateful for and anxious that something might happen and it will be taken away. I have to force myself to take care of me and pretend that everything is fine. I feel like I'm drowning and just trying to stay afloat. Any little thing or problem sets me off to crying, or just exploding and it scares me. And I wish I had a therapist but I really can't afford one.