Living for others

[Misty95]

I've been living with anxiety and depression for many years, and have just recently gone onto antidepressants. I've been finding it harder and harder to get out of bed each morning, and some mornings I don't. What makes things worse is everyone around me telling me that I'm too young to be feeling this way and that I should get over it. My boss wants me to stop taking antidepressants as he feels it's making me worse. I don't really have anyone to talk to because I don't want to burden anyone with my feelings, and if I happen to mention something, I am made to feel like it's nothing.... So I go on and smile and pretend that everything is okay.... For what? To please those around me? All I'm doing is making it worse.

So I've decided to accept my conditions and embrace them. No one can tell me how to feel or act because they are not me. I'm not having a good day, and that's okay. I'll do some breathing exercises and I'll read a book and hope tomorrow is better.

[Hb2003]

If you need anything let me know I am sorry that you are feeling this way i hope that your day gets better sending much kindness light and good vibes to you ✌🏻😊

[Misty95 in reply to Hb2003]

Thank you so much!!

[Hb2003 in reply to Misty95]

Your welcome ❤️😊

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It’s good you’re accepting the feelings, trying to fight them doesn’t help. I hope things start to improve for you now.

It seems strange that your boss is trying to tell you whether to take medication! That is NOT his call!

I am glad you reached out about your depression. Presenting a false face for the “others” is sometimes necessary but inside we have to accept the reality of depression.

By the way that reminds me of “smiling depression” which can wear you out until you’re just completely drained. I had smiling depression, for I don’t know how long. It’s not a technical term but it describes the effort of concealing your true feelings.

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Wow! Great job!!!👍👍👍