This is me

[bonkers65]

This is me

[Hidden]

Hey you're not gone, you're on hiatus, you're temporarily incapacitated. You will make a comeback, I have faith in you!!!

[bonkers65 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for your faith in me.

[Hidden in reply to bonkers65]

Sure thing. Head over to YouTube and listen to If I Ever Lose My Faith In You by Sting. That song has saved my life!!! Maybe it will help you too.

[Iammesues in reply to Hidden]

What does the song mean to you? I mean- my faith is lost in others and myself

[Agora1]

Hi bonkers, like Googoodoll said, you're still there. That "happy you" may be

buried deep down right now but is just waiting for you to say "I'm ready" to live again and not just exist. xx

[bonkers65 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you. I'm trying to keep up my hope.

[Iammesues in reply to bonkers65]

How you feeling?

[bonkers65 in reply to Iammesues]

Not too good. Lots of anxiety/depression. Feel hopeless. Hate to go to bed at night because I have to wake up and do it again. Sometimes wish I wouldn't wake up. Thanks for checking on me though. Hope you are doing well.

[Iammesues in reply to bonkers65]

When I go to bed I always pretend I have a friend to talk to and I’m telling the friend my thoughts and they are listening and understanding me. It allows me to sleep. I literally look forward to talking to this dream friend every nite.

[Iammesues in reply to bonkers65]

Hi. How you feeling today?

[bonkers65 in reply to Iammesues]

About the same. Talk to my psy. dr. tomorrow. I always get nervous talking to her and I don't know why because I like her. Maybe it's because I don't know if she's going to give up on me or prescribe some drug that's going to make me feel worst. I'm on a low dose of Lithium and Seroquil now so she may just go up on those. If she goes up on the Lithium I will have to have blood work more regularly. I guess I'll have to just wait and see. How are you doing?

[Iammesues in reply to bonkers65]

Me? I’m sad. My social phobia is high. I only feel calm in bed

[bonkers65 in reply to Iammesues]

I know what you mean

[Iammesues in reply to bonkers65]

I wish someone would show up in my bedroom and tell me they see what’s happening and they care. I guess that’s what this site gives me

[Agora1 in reply to Iammesues]

I do care, believe in that xx

[bonkers65 in reply to Iammesues]

Yes we do care. I'm glad you feel like you are getting some support from this site. I feel like I'm getting support here.

[Iammesues in reply to bonkers65]

And that someone could be a witness to how my husband acts towards me so they could look at me and signal it’s time he leave

[FearIsALiar in reply to bonkers65]

Hey bonkers, checking in to see how you’re doing. How you feeling?

[bonkers65 in reply to FearIsALiar]

Hey FearlsALiar. I'm feeling about the same. Lots of anxiety and depression. It eases up a little bit at night but not much. Just trying to accept it and do the best I can. How are you doing?

[FearIsALiar in reply to bonkers65]

Anxiety has skyrocketed as of lately. Keep dealing with shortness of breath. It sucks but got meds increased today.

[bonkers65 in reply to FearIsALiar]

Yes I have some shortness of breath too. I'm pretty sure it's anxiety causing it. I hope yours gets better and your increase in meds helps you. Keep us posted.

[FearIsALiar in reply to bonkers65]

Thanks I will. I’m a bit worried though about increase in meds. I’m scared it will be too much

[bonkers65 in reply to FearIsALiar]

Just work with your doctor and take it slow

[FearIsALiar in reply to bonkers65]

Thanks I did. Meds make my head feel weird ugh I hate it

[Iammesues]

I miss me too. Been so long since I saw her I’ve forgotten what she looked like.

[Bluetj]

I miss me 2 😔