Every day is a struggle

[kfab2015]

Hi everyone, I am really having a hard time recently finding a reason to live. I can’t find the point in eating or working or doing anything, it all seems pointless. I used to love to run and cook and see friends and I just can’t make myself do anything . I just want to stay in bed all day. The only time I am happy is when I am sleeping. Just needed to share

[Hidden]

Sounds like depressionto me, as depression is very good at being life-sucking.

I'm sorry it's a struggle. Are you seeing a therapist?

[kfab2015 in reply to Hidden]

I am and I started taking some meds a few weeks ago. Sometimes they seem to help but then 5 minutes later it’s all awful again

[Hidden in reply to kfab2015]

Do you find the therapy helping? Also, it can take up to several weeks for medicines to reach their full effect.

Hang in there; I know you can👍

[completely-zero654 in reply to Hidden]

Totally agree with you as there is no magic wand I wish, know mine took sometime but with a talk to someone pro too about the problem did help all anti depressants, meds etc take time but worth it in the end. xx

[completely-zero654]

Hello, know this is a horrible place to be and think on here we have all felt like you and some may still feel like this, my husband goes through this every few weeks, feels like he is nothing and wants to just curl up and sleep. I too have been like this when I lost my mum in 2013, has anything like this happened to you to bring on these feelings? Please forgive me for asking such a direct question but something dreadful must have happened to make you feel this way, know it is hard to explain please try to tell us about it if you can then someone will definitely be able to help as we have been this way ourselves and still going through it. xx

[kfab2015 in reply to completely-zero654]

Thanks for your message. I’ve dealt with this for years but it’s never lasted this long -weeks. My boyfriend and I broke up and he hates me and it’s all my fault because my anxiety made me act literally like another person and I can’t forgive myself or stop thinking about the hurt I’ve caused. All I do is make everyone’s life worse and I can’t stand knowing that.

[Starrlight in reply to kfab2015]

We all make mistakes. I’ve caused hurt to my husband in the past because of my illness resulting in bad behavior but I have to forgive myself. Please try to forgive yourself.

[kfab2015 in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks, I am trying but I don’t feel like I deserve forgiveness when he won’t forgive me. I’m so angry I couldn’t see what was happening until it was too late. How do you cope with that

[Starrlight in reply to kfab2015]

Just have to try to give yourself a break I think...I know easier said than done...I’m sorry

[gnsbao13]

I relate to exactly what you just said. I am sorry you too are struggling with this. I know it is difficult but I believe you can get past this. Please feel free to message me if you ever feel you need someone to talk to

[kfab2015 in reply to gnsbao13]

Thank you for your response. I’m caught in a loop of bitterness and regret wishing I could fix the last even though I know that isn’t helpful. Ever moment is excruciating. It feels good to say this to someone instead of just keeping it inside

[gnsbao13 in reply to kfab2015]

I understand. It is good to express yourself and let your feelings out. I think keeping it bottled up only leads to more harm than good (at least personally I find). Even if you are expressing yourself to a "stranger" or a close friend, it might be helpful

[sunandbutterfly]

Hello,

Thank you for sharing. Know that you are not alone. It was brave of you to seek assistance for the way that you have been feeling. Don't give up on the medication or therapy as they sometimes take a little bit to help. It can be like trying to find the right puzzle pieces to put together. If after 6 weeks you feel like the medication is not helping, make sure that you communicate with your care provider.

You mentioned struggling with forgiveness. Have you ever heard of the book Live to Forgive? Or the book Forgive, Let Go and Live? Maybe they would be helpful for you.

Hope that today is a better day for you!